Heal with E

07/11/2025

People didn’t understand me loving a man in active addiction.
But I didn’t see him as an addict.
I saw his intelligence. His softness. His humour.
I also saw his wounds and wanted to tend to them.

And I also grew up with addicts all around me. They ate at our table, and came to our birthdays, and went on picnics with us.

Red flags are not red flags when they feel like home.

It’s that simple.

I love the last verse in this song because it’s even more true now than it was when I wrote it.

How I wish I could reach back in time and tell her that everything changes.

But even if I could, she wouldn’t believe me.

Because she has to work on it in her own time.

Just like you do.

Whatever is holding you back, you don’t need to overhaul it all today. You just gotta chip away at it. One small thing today. And another small thing in a few weeks or months.

I believe in you x

Evangeline 🫶

04/11/2025

Always brings the goods 🥺

31/10/2025

You’re safe and your life is good x

(but also, if it’s not, let’s work together on that)

26/10/2025

25/09/2025

Having recovered from addiction, I had no idea what to focus on, so I did what I knew and focussed on losing weight.
But this year, that approach failed me due to a myriad of health issues , and so in yet another form of recovery, I had to challenge my own beliefs (that being slim was my goal) and I kept going to the gym even though I was gaining weight and my gut and spine felt like they were on fire most of the time. I kept going because I realised I want to age with strength, mobility, balance and stability.

I don’t take as many selfies as I did when I was slimmer.. and I intentionally don’t look in the mirror as often.

Which is maybe why I didn’t notice how much my body has changed over the last few months of consistent effort. Not only are my shoulders, arms, chest different, but my spine is straighter. See how my right shoulder is dropping in the top pic? That’s my scoliosis.

At the gym, I do the Pilates and tone class, and a few days a week I lift weights.

Honestly, I’m awkward there. I trip over my own feet, I lose my balance, I slip off the equipment. Sometimes I gotta put the weights down and just do the actions in class, and I move slowly. Like super slow. And I just keep going anyway.

Because, I choose life.

X

18/09/2025

Protein powders are out for me now. But I’m trying to heal my gut and remedy my metabolism so was recommended this to add into my smoothies.
It’s taken a bit of getting used to, but I’ve grown accustomed to it and starting to feel the benefits now I’m taking it everyday.
Made for those who are pregnant and/or breastfeeding, it’s an amazing organic super blend packed with nutrition and probiotics.

💞

16/09/2025

There’s some things I’ve really missed.
Like tuna pasta bake!
So here is a simple white sauce that has no dairy or flour.
I used my thermomix but you can cook this on the stove top and then use your blender.
1. Roast (on a low heat) 1 medium cauliflower head - cut into florets

Cook in a pot:
1/2 cup raw cashews
1 small onion - diced
3 cloves garlic - minced

Combine cauliflower m, cashews, onion and garlic and blitz for a minute or so.

Then add
▢ 1 teaspoon lemon juice
▢ ⅛ teaspoon nutmeg
▢ ¼ teaspoon white pepper - or black pepper
▢ 2 cups plant milk - I used unsweetened soy
▢ 1 teaspoon salt - optional
and blitz the crap outta it.
It took about 5 minutes (and a few scrape downs) to get the smooth consistency of a roux.

I adjusted for my allergies, but Thanks to vegan with gusto for the OG recipe (they use oat milk and add nutritional yeast and steam the Cauli then squish the water out)

🥰

07/09/2025

Father’s Day, like Mother’s Day, like Christmas and birthdays is not the same for everyone.
Sending love to everyone today 🩵