17/01/2026
I’ve meditated morning and night for the last 20 years.
But this morning, I came to a startling realisation.
I’ve been trying to meditate ahead of my life
so I can feel safe being in it.
I get up at 5am to make sure I have my sacred time
before everyone else is awake.
But somewhere along the way, this practice became tangled with anxiety and the belief that my hyper-vigilance is what keeps me okay.
That if I don’t stay ahead of everyone and everything,
then I won’t be okay.
I don’t want to live like that anymore.
Today, I’m choosing to trust that I’m already okay.
Whether my family is awake, the sun is already in the sky or people are already walking their dogs.
I'm okay.
I’m going to meditate inside my life - with the kettle boiling, the kids moving through the house,
and my husband.needing support.
I no longer have to earn my calm.
I claim it.
This feels ... liberating…
I’ll let you know how this one lands.
I’d love to hear how do you mentally and emotionally prepare for your day? ✨