10/11/2025
I still remember the day I 'accidentally' came out of the closet, the woo woo closet that is.
It was cringey, awful, unsettling and most of all...confronting.
Not one of you, or my family would even know what I'm on about because I've always been a little different, quirky, woo woo. Like Phoebe off friends really. Sparkly, goofy, a little weird. I studied Natural therapies and had my Doreen Virtue Angel cards. There were definite signs and yet, I very much only showed what I believed was a smig. A mere dusting, little sprinkle. I wore many masks and fitted in best I could, albeit with the most coolest souls along the way. I guess I held back, like many of us.
Then it happened, I followed Doreen Virtue (ya know, before she did her 180). I absolutely admired her, was besotted, loved her work and really she was one of the first to bring it out in a way that touched us, gently. Soooooo she posts a post and I, without thinking, wrote a long winded comment, saying all these things I saw/felt, It was like I put my deepest darkest secret online and then she replied. To ME, omg what a moment, I was floating on Angel clouds and everything. Then I started to get PM'S from people on my friends list opening up about their experiences.... I thought, OH NO it's a public post and EVERYONE could see what I'd written. I'd written so much, f**k I was embarrassed. My in-laws, their friends, my friends, my then husbands friends....EVERYONE could see this post.
It's absolutely ridiculous now but I remember feeling so ashamed for letting my guard down and putting myself out there like that. Just a smig Carrie, just show a smig of yourself because you're too freaking weird for this world !!!! That was my belief. I literally felt like an Alien on this planet and always hoped I'd be beamed back up, especially at that moment 😅. Anyways it would take another few years and rock bottoms to get comfortable with all this woo woo stuff, basically myself. Here I am though.
So if that's you... still maybe hiding or just one foot in/foot out. A few too many masks. That's okay, till it's not. Till your soul demands more because it wants the world for you !!! Things might get a little awkward and confronting, things and people might slip away. I promise you though, it's worth it. Growth always happens in the uncomfortable moments ✨️
