11/11/2025
Because stillness exposes the feelings, the thoughts, the stories your system has been running from… even if you don’t realise it’s running.
So instead of softening, your brain does what it’s been trained to do:
speed up, dump stress, create chaos, pull you straight back into what’s familiar.
Not because you’re “bad at meditating.”
Not because you lack discipline.
Because overwhelm has been home base for so long that calm feels foreign… and foreign feels unsafe.
This morning I dropped straight into the loop:
“I’m tired. I can’t focus. I don’t want to do this. Here’s everything that’s wrong…”
And then I caught it.
And instead of fighting my mind or trying to hack my way into stillness, I asked:
“Can I give myself ten minutes where I’m not a problem to solve?”
Everything shifted.
Because patterns don’t break through pressure.
They break the moment you meet yourself differently
with awareness instead of attack,
permission instead of panic.
If meditation feels hard for you, there’s nothing wrong with you.
Your system is simply more fluent in overwhelm than in peace.
Stillness isn’t unsafe.
It’s just new.
And your body can learn new… one regulated moment at a time.