11/11/2025
TW: blood, birth
My first birth (2022) ended in an unplanned C-section at 9cm with a breech baby.
I struggled afterwards, pain, dissociation, Covid restrictions and feeling unheard.
I knew before getting pregnant again: I wanted a VBAC.
I went in loud + informed.
Despite doing Hypnobirthing, screaming felt more powerful for me, it helped me stay in my body, feel in control and move the energy.
Pushing felt like every ounce of me (mind + body + universe) had to channel downward 🤯
It was INTENSE… but I never felt out of control.
The adrenaline afterwards was wild.
Recovery came with stitches & discomfort,
but still so much easier than my C-section.
I even gave myself 2 full weeks at home,
something I never allowed the first time.
Deep gratitude for:
✨ my midwife + support midwife
✨ my mum for holding River
✨ my MIL for nailing acupressure better than Terence 😅