07/11/2025
Pre-kids, I was always fairly fit and loved exercise. I stayed super active right through my pregnancies, but after having my second baby, exercise and I parted ways. Looking back, I can see I was definitely struggling. My kids as toddlers were a lot for me and I really missed working so to cope, I turned to emotional eating. I gained 10kgs, became unhappy in myself and carried that weight for many years.
When I was at my heaviest, I found this black sequin dress in my wardrobe, the one I wore to my Hens in 2010 (and Iād felt amazing in). For some reason, I kept it, even while thinking, how on earth did I wear this tiny excuse for a dress? āŗļø One day, without expectation, I thought, maybe Iāll wear it again, then threw it in the back of my wardrobe and forgot about it.
Fast forward to now and here I am, back in sun kissed Bali on a vaycay, showing our kids where we got married 15 years ago. And, I packed the dress.
Last night, we went to for drinks, the place I celebrated my Hens all those years ago and so for fun I wore this black sequin dress. Full circle moment š„°
Since I was last in Bali, Iāve done some pretty special things. While I wonāt list them all (hahah), some highlights in no particular order include: loving Josh, becoming a mama, breastfeeding, growing a successful private practice, rediscovering my exercise spark, becoming a qualified F45 Trainer (where I get to work with other postnatal mamas šš»), losing those 10kgs while rewriting my relationship with food, learning to use it as fuel for my training and becoming the strongest Iāve ever been.
Itās not about how I look in this dress, itās about the woman I am in the dress. What Iāve achieved, and who Iāve become since I last wore it⦠š„¹
This version of meā¦ š„¹š„¹ Itās taken years to find her, so Iām going to slow down and really be with her for a while.
So remember mamaās, if youāre reading this thinking youāre not quite where you want to be, well firstly I want you to know itās going to be ok.
And secondly⦠this is not a before and after story, itās a story of becoming and you are too š«