20/12/2025
I genuinely thought this reel was going to be a cute lil island transfer moment ā¦
Turns out it was a live re-enactment of my worst fear š«
Thirty minutes in open water. A storm rolling in. Waves doing that aggressive āare you okay? no? coolā thing.
Meanwhile my brain said: āHey remember when you nearly drowned at 16 after getting stuck in a rip? Letās revisit that, shall we.ā
Immediate regrettttt
10/10 do not recommend for someone whose nervous system still thinks open water = ⨠imminent death āØ
Iām sitting there pretending to be calm, meanwhile internally Iām negotiating with the universe, doing breathing exercises, and gripping the seat like itās the only thing keeping me alive.
Josh is vibing, Xavier is SLEEPING, the ocean is feral, I am ⨠not ⨠built for this.
But hereās the wild part⦠I stayed.
Didnāt jump overboard (growth). Didnāt cry (character development). Didnāt demand we turn around (self-restraint of the year).
Trips like this arenāt always sunsets and smoothie bowls.
Sometimes theyāre facing an old fear head-on, laughing through the terror, and realising youāre actually a lot more capable than your trauma likes to remind you.
Anyway⦠if you see me choosing pools over oceans for the rest of my life, mind your business š