02/01/2026
Filling my own cup….
You cannot pour from an empty cup.
A broken or cracked cup just bleeds out.
I spent 2025 doing exactly this.
It was the best decision & act of self love I have ever gifted myself.
No more self abandonment.
No more self sacrifice.
I fell off the face of the earth.
Recovery mode…..saving Jenny.
Heal the healer…..
Like on planes, remember to put your own oxygen mask on first, before & so you can help others.
Life gives us all mountains to climb.
After being told I couldn’t reverse Refractory Coeliac Disease for 5 years I fought to survive, changing everything I ate & did…..I had no stomach lining left, suffering malnutrition & no ability to absorb food.
I was literally starving to death as my body ate itself to survive, it was excruciatingly painful & a haunting space to be trapped at deaths door, the shadowlands were my home, to cross over several times, but by some miracle I was able to come back……my Shamanic Self Mastery walk….to finally hear the magic words…..”Jenny you are my medical miracle, you are in remission, you’ve regrown Villi, it’s all here, I have extensive medical serology”.
I refused medicine & chemo to reset my body, only with diet, nurtition, herbal medicine….and of course 24/7 devotion on my healing journey.
My heart diagnosed in 2020, told I would die by doctors, that it was 80% blocked, trying to put fear into me, only to discover my beautiful Lionsheart had successfully healed itself.
Miraculously it found its own blood flow path & only has 30% blockage….my Professor said it’s impossible to unblock a major artery ….but it happened.
During this period of time life wasnt kind nor easy for me.
How can I survive.
I was stripped of everything, vibrancy, energy, health, scrambled brains, traumatized & reduced to literally nothing….literally skin & bones.
I would say….please dont let me loose Jenny.
Can you still see Im here….fighting to survive?
How am I going to recover & heal.
I made a huge choice.
I announced Im in recovery mode.
I had to face every wound & story.
I smashed through toxicity, neglect, fear, trauma, pain & hell.
I pulled back all my energy for me.
I stopped consulting & healing others.
I shut down my womens & masters circles.
I cut off all toxic relationships.
I no longer gave open access to others.
I was barely alive.
I was in pure primal survival mode.
It saved my life.
Let my body, mind & soul heal.
It took many moons & lots of soul searching.
I had “peace” as my divining rod.
If it didnt help me find peace, it didnt exist or enter my world & sacred space.
I put up strong healthy boundaries & upheld them.
Many didnt see me for over a year.
I rarely left my sacred space.
I journeyed on every level to find, activate & receive my medicine.
As a Master Teacher & Healer I was challenged to walk my walk, talk my talk.
To dive deeply into my medicine tool box.
To become the medicine woman I became it.
The hardest, was to walk away & focus everything on myself, from people I had been devoted to & supported, but I had no capacity left for anyone….there was barely anything left for me to survive.
It’s ok to say Im not ok.
It’s empowering to say Im recovering.
It’s ok to say Im at my capacity.
It’s ok to say no & mean it.
It’s ok to say my cup needs replenishment.
It’s ok to gift yourself time out.
It’s ok for our cups to be chipped, cracked, dented & broken, because thats our truth & reality.
It’s ok to mend that cup with gold showing its strength & ability to stand the tests of time.
It’s ok to buy a beautiful new cup to start a new beginning & timeline.
It’s ok to fill our own cup.
It’s ok to put yourself first.
It’s ok to rest.
But whatever you/me/we choose…..in 2026.
It’s our universal 1 year.
New cycles & new beginnings await.
New cycles.
It’s to pause, refil, saviour & drink from our cup of life.
What is your “divining rod word”
Peace, love, happiness, good health, safe?
Please find your word with meaning.
Then live it.
True & authentic to yourself.
Then watch your world recover, rebirth & reset.
You are so worth it.
Im living proof……you can recover, you can rebuild, you can go from survive to how sweet it is to be alive.
When that work is done….
Your whole being finds peace & home again.
Its all within.
You hold your masters key to unlock your path & healing.
Loving, nurturing, protecting, satiating & accepting all versions of self.
Something to ponder
Jenny
Energising Souls
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