18/09/2022
Subject: Dance report
This morning we followed Sifu, initially through section 2, and after a report, Section 3 till the start of Repulse Monkey. This is my second report (first report: "nothing to report").
I was following Sifu reasonably steadily, pondering on why in section 2 whenever I had my back to Sifu, I came back to the front way ahead of everyone else, and realising I was in a kind of fast forward, i.e. going through the motions mentally to get them over and done with before actually following again. Also pondering the depth of experiences others in the group reported, but myself not really getting the same depth, really focusing on technique, waiting for movement to occur rather than doing, etc, distractions like the dog scratching on my son's door, analysis etc. Still very ordinary.
I decided not long before we were nearly finished in section 3, to 'Just Stop Thinking', and almost immediately felt a strong cool flow, and beautiful depth of experience. This lasted a short while, maybe close to when we finished.
Parvati simply reported she didn't get very deep today, in similar words. I realised by this time my similar experience in general of section 2 was due to my stubborn habit of thinking... all the time, at many levels. One of my reasons for seeking meditation many years ago, was observing myself thinking mundane thoughts, even whilst saying the Lord's Prayer. These days thinking during the time I have sat to meditate (stop thinking), however forgotten why I was there.
I reported that awareness of the obstacle of getting deep experiences had become much clearer to me, and Sifu asked me to pen my experience as I have.
Sifu went on to explain to Noriko his experiences in meeting certified Tai Chi instructors with significant health issues who were aware of their own lack of depth of experience. In that moment I could see in myself potential to reach similar lack of depth because of my habits of thinking.
After class I sat to meditate remembering the above. I experienced such strong cool vibrations especially after lighting the incense, that when I started I immediately stopped raising and tying up Kundalini, out of Respect, because She was already There.
Thanks and regards, Andrew.
The interpretation of my experiences is influenced by my background as a long time practitioner of Sahaja Yoga Meditation (SY), and as a physiotherapist. My interest in learning Tai Chi originally came from hearing that the founder of SY had said Tai Chi was invented by a realized soul, although as....
