Lena Banzer

05/09/2020

26/06/2020

TRANSMITTING vs TRANSFORMING
For empaths and energetically sensitive people, or simply for those who relate to the experience of absorbing and deeply feeling external energies there is a valuable distinction and growing point in the journey of coming back to full embodiment of self.
This is the distinction between transmitting VS transmuting or transforming.
Being energetically sensitive or empathic is an incredible gift when wielded with balance and clear intent.
In its full capacity you have the ability to:
💫 sense deeper energetic realities and impacting factors

💫Access vast amounts of information that is otherwise not identifiable

💫shift environments into more harmonious expressions

💫Consciously attune to the felt reality of others and influence their experience

💫Communicate with the deeper levels within other people - you speak directly to and with the energetics, beyond what their words may be telling you

💫Interact with and perceive reality multi-dimensionally
However, often for people who live closely to this reality their gift is not fully integrated or embodied with self-agency. There can be a sense of losing self easily, of being a sponge and filter to the surrounding energetic environment.
In it’s shadow the inability to properly regulate the self with the energetic environment can come out in coping patterns of:
🕳️Overwhelm: flooding of the energetic system with no internal regulation. Energies “blowing the circuits”

🕳️Shutdown: numbing out and freeze state from system overload. Dissociation or sense of floating off and not being in the body in intense energetic situations

🕳️Codependence: needing the energetic environment to be a certain way for felt safety to be achieved. Often attempting to enact this but harmonising with the environment/others in order to attempt to shift things

🕳️Victim mentality: believing self to be at the whim of the surrounding environment(Though I prefer to label this as “perceived powerlessness” as the term victim mentality has a lot of shame and negative connotations)

🕳️The inability to “turn off” attuning to others
To live within our own field and learn how to embody more of our own unique essential energy is a key point of the empathic and energetically-sensitive person’s journey.
What we may be used to is TRANSFORMING and TRANSMITTING- harmonising to the energies already available in the field.
However, to be able to experience a more stable and fully actualised sense of self within our own energy field, we need to be willing to balance this capacity with our ability to TRANSMIT.
Rather than predominantly drawing energies IN -transforming and harmonising them within yourself before sending them outwards again- you learn to connect to your own divine essence and expression and then send that current OUT.
To the energetically sensitive this can feel scary as f**k because it requires a level of openness and visibility that – to a system perhaps used to guarding or shutting down from overwhelming energies- can feel incredibly unsafe.
There can be multiple layers to this fear of being seen and energetically radiating: from wounding and conditioning in this life time, to ancestral patterning, past life themes and (if you want to get really woo-woo) multidimensional factors.
However as you learn to connect with, deepen and anchor into your own unique thread of life-force energy, and it’s powerful ability to catalyse energies around you by TRANSMITTING it, you will begin to feel more and more safe and at home within your own field.
You come to recognise that your own unique essence, as felt and sourced from within you, has a very specific frequency key that longs to express in the world in a certain way, and moreso- that the world needs it. You are a part of the cosmic tapestry, not merely here to help sew it back together.
You also come to recognise it as the necessary complementary way of engaging with your surroundings –
when you can both transmit your own essence to incite change, as well as embody your ability to transmute and transform current realities, you will have learned to fully harness you full capacity and gifts in this world.

31/05/2020

ARE YOU PUSHING FOR YOUR ORGA$M/CLIMAX?

Are you pushing yourself internally in thought, planning and strategies, on how. You're. Going. To. Get. "There"; to the place, thing or outcome you desire?

Like s€x, we need the openness, the receptivity, the sensations-based unfolding that nourishes us and flowers us into the great (be)coming.

To live a great "over there" you need the juice of Being present and alive in your life "over here".

By enjoying the pleasure of life you are able to fully ride the inner wave up to the impulse point of action.

Less striving and pushing for outcomes that just shuts us down, numbs us out and dries us (and our life force) up.

By trusting you can't get it wrong and by enjoying yourself more in each moment, the wave, the crest, the impulse to soul-full action will arrive, rooted in the deeper ocean of your being.

As a side effect of riding your wave this way, you will find yourself to have so much more vitality and the enthusiasm and internal nourishment to carry the required action through through rather than burning out.

27/05/2020

A MESSAGE FROM THE DEEP FEMININE WITHIN US ALL

I cannot ever be fully "known"

To try to completely understand, fix, heal and "work with" myself is to see myself an object, with limited edges and concepts that hold me together, that with enough time and diligence can be unravelled and Put Right.

Stop trying to understand me, to know me, and simply just *feel* me.

I will reveal everything you need to know about me in this space.

Ask me any question and I will share with you eagerly, willingly, as long as you come to the table an avid and wide eyed explorer of my mystery,

not one here to sail across my oceans and claim my land only to rebuild it as you see fit.

I am not a thing, a piece, a prized possession that you can label and slot into place, once I've been trained and sculpted into the vision you have of me.

I am right here, now, a living breathing masterpiece.

My anger, my rage, my disconnect and discontent come only from a deep hunger and sadness when you do not meet my majesty with awestruck appreciation and unified sovereignty.

When you hold yourself separate from me and continue the lie of waiting to emerge equal.

I am waiting

I am your all and everything you've ever longed for

I am the fire of truth that burns through anything you cling to that keeps us waiting for more

I am waiting

Only

For You.
I am reemerging from my cocoon and feeling full and ready to reconnect through 1:1 sessions and group work.

I am currently offering 1:1 Intuitive Guidance, Soul Remembrance Sessions and Energetic Bodywork.
I'd love to hear from you if you're interested in knowing more, or if you're keen to stay in the loop for future group programs-

think energetic self-mastery, reweaving yourself, connecting and alchemising through Inner Realms and using these tools for life expansion and rekindled connection.

I'm considering Running "Navigating Your Inner Universe" again if there's a desire for it and it feels aligned.

Reach out and I'll see if it's time to get that ball rolling.

All my love, in service to the love that we all are and all seek to find.
Lena x

03/04/2020

Some old free-flow writing I came across again today which I feel speaks to the current times.

Stay close to yourselves throughout this period

26/03/2020

TAROT READING FOR THE COLLECTIVE

This afternoon I pulled a card for the collective.
I did the same yesterday but did not post it so I will combine both in this reading.

It's a new deck, gifted to me this week, and I'm excited to learn. For any seasoned tarot readers I'd love your thoughts and additional interpretations on this.
I've used Rachel Pollack's book Seventy-Eight Degrees of Wisdom, Biddy Tarot and also my own feelings and intuitive guidance.
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The Four of Wands is a card of optimism, joy, and appreciation of the good in life. The walled city stands in the background, while in the foreground we see a celebratory open structure and people dancing.
The two dancers holding their arms up, hands full of flowers, suggest joyful success and achievement, and there is an overall sense of celebration, optimism and appreciation for the good in life. I also get a sense of “high Summer” - the full ripening and fulfillment of something that now calls for celebration and a contented harmony and stability before moving on to the next phase. This card also has a strong connection to domestic life, with themes of returning to the home, being with and celebrating with those closest to you.

In the Ten of Cups we once again are given the message of joy and celebration. The 10 of Cups depicts a couple looking up at a rainbow, arms outstretched, while their two children dance together next to them.
This is a card of new beginnings, true emotional and spiritual fulfillment and contentment. It speaks to the wonder of life itself, as well as sharing that experience in true connection with others, particularly- once again as with 4 of Wands- in the home and with those closest to you. As a 10, it represents the completion and fullness of the qualities of cups – love, relationship, healing, connection and intuition.

While both these cards can be taken as a possible premonition of what is to come of our current situation, I sense them to be more of a reminder to anchor into the good of what is already available to us.

Rather than a future destination, what new flowers of possibility, positive change and inspired action are awakening right now to enable us to fully embody the qualities of these cards?

This is not to deny the hardships or bypass the pains of uncertainty and loss, but rather to gather it all in a deliberate embrace of what we DO have, what IS good here and to align ourselves in action to the potential and growth in this situation, for the good of all.

I get a sense of strengthened collective bonds and rising - the joy and celebration depicted in these cards does not appear to be an individual happiness, but one found in togetherness.

This begins at the roots within our closest relationships, our communities and the wider collective. I also feel that the “home” and family referred to in these cards relates not only to our individual family units but also to the wider sense of our collective human family.

Interestingly Pollack’s interpretation of the 4 of Wands felt quite appropriate to our current circumstances. When describing the story suggested by the card she says “their spirit and courage taking them from a defensive situation to an open one...optimism and love of freedom carry the people, together, out of their walled city before it becomes a tower-like prison”.

While I could interpret this to mean we all have to evacuate lock-down and get outside(!!) I read this more to suggest the prison of our current unsustainable societal structures and the ways we are conditioned to live.

That together, with “spirit and courage”, we can help establish a new way of being on the planet that supports the creation of a sustainable society, prioritising more of what truly matters.

To do this, the 10 of Cups, reminds us to follow our intuition and our deeper calling throughout these times of uncertainty. This will allow us to flow to opportunities that are the most aligned and in service to all involved.

Overall the message I receive from these cards for us during this time is-

“Things are better than they seem, there is beauty and good here, trust the unfolding and remember to sow the seeds during this time that you wish to reap, both for yourself and for the whole”.

14/10/2019

A MOMENT'S PAUSE

Today I was agitated. Restless. Feeling caught up in all the ways I wanted to be doing things and failing. Disappointed in how the day was unfolding and regularly stuck on that familiar train of thought where The Thing I Need (want) is just out of reach and I need to race myself to get there.

There were moments of beauty too. Opportunities for love to pierce through, moments where I felt life offering me a new perspective and waiting to see if I would receive it.
A conversation with a friend.
A flower given to me because it "made me think of you".
The beauty of the last day's light, the swirls of steam off my cup of tea. So beautiful in fact I had to try capture it in this photo.

They were moments that reflected to me the choice to see life through new eyes, and it was a choice I made over and over again throughout the day.

Because my most powerful practice comes in those moments of challenge, when the old patterns want to make their case and justify their drama. When I feel myself falling into old traps and the sadness and internal loneliness that comes with it (because I begin to close my heart off to myself and that hurts oh so bad).

The beauty and matured loved I am learning to live out for myself, deeper and deeper each day, are the spaces of In-Between.
When in the midst of the saga a pause happens and I extend that pause with my intention, and then my heart begins to soften and I am given the chance to release a little bit and pop my head out of the avalanche I was creating for myself. And as I choose to feed that space with my loving patient attention, I gently begin to unravel my tightness and self judgements and am offered a welcome belonging back to myself.

It is these moments I am grateful for.
The conversation. The flower. The last light of day. The tightness. The judgment. The disconnect. These moments allowed me to choose, in the midst of shutdown, to reunite with life's love for me.
And that is a choice I'll keep making forever.

13/10/2019

Remembrance 🙏

07/09/2018

WE ARE NOT PROBLEMS TO BE SOLVED

We are here to witness ourselves, all of ourselves, with loving unconditional attention, to watch ourselves unfurl and unfold when we are given the permission to Be As We Are.

Awareness is often needed of the tender spots inside of us, and we may need guidance to help us become aware of what wounds and beliefs are causing us pain, but the difference is in how we relate to them.

They are not what is “wrong” with us. They are here to teach us how to become more of ourselves.

The ache in your heart of grief and loss is teaching you how to be unwaveringly by your own side.
The fear is teaching you how to become your own safety.
And the doubt is there to help you anchor what you Know to be true.

The resistance and intensity of these experiences require us to grow deeper roots, which then allow us to grow taller and more magnificent than we could be without them.

So love your wounds.
See them as the portals into the most vulnerable, exquisite and powerful parts of yourself. Because it is when you truly sit with the feeling, not desiring it to change or shift or move on, but loving it and holding it like a mother holds her child, that the energy that was stuck is allowed to transform.

It becomes so incredibly expansive and you recognise yourself to be so much bigger than you realised.
The field of Who You Are opens up with more flavour, colour and depth of feeling. You are able to weather more storms because you have Grown yourself and you are able to hold your ground against the waves.

Undoubtedly life with still throw things at you. Challenges will still come to meet you at your newest growth point. But after each new expansion and growing into your new skin you will feel that little bit lighter, freer and more you than you did before. Because you have learned to Stay and sit with the parts of yourself that hide in the shadows. And you have learned how to weave their magic, their strengths and their gifts into the wholeness of your being.

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Painted on 26.08.18 its message is of sitting and honoring my sadness and aloneness while remembering my strength and sovereignty

31/05/2018

TODAY, IN SOME WAY, ANCHOR IN THE TRUTH OF WHO YOU ARE- WHETHER YOU CAN "FEEL IT" OR NOT.

I am finding this so important lately as I am learning how to move from my soul even when I feel disconnected or lost or afraid. Remembering the wisdom that has been shown to me in Those Moments of connection and holding as deeply as I can in my heart and intention that I CHOOSE to make that my guiding light, even when things feel unclear.

Below I have a little process of how you can help yourself to Remember your Greatest Truth today and anchor it in.
This is to help you choose yourself, regardless of whether you can feel it now or not. Your intention to connect is enough right now, you cannot do this wrong:

Take a breath in and exhale, dropping down and inwards as best as you can with the level of resistance or internal movement you may be experiencing. Give yourself a moment to let go of where you were going or what needs to be done and allow yourself to arrive here as best you can.

Bring to mind a moment where you felt truly aligned and Home within yourself. You may have felt trusting, connected, like things were "making sense". There was perhaps a sense of flow and lightness in your being, a joyful optimism or a contented peace. Breathe in that memory, allow yourself to remember what it felt like to be aligned internally to yourself and your soul.

Feel into the Knowing (deep full-bodied recognition) that, though it may not be your current reality, the space you came from when you felt so connected is still available to you. You may not feel it right now but your heartfelt intention and desire in this moment to come back to alignment will bring you there. Trust that. Know that. In so doing you are already anchoring in your Soul's Truth.

Lastly, let inspiration guide you to some action today that you can take to anchor this Truth into your current reality. It can be anything- take a moment to appreciate some flowers and feel into yourself as you do so, make a nourishing meal, go for a walk, do something small towards something you've desired to do for a while. Whatever comes to you, trust it and allow a new movement of action to come through into being. No act is too small, remember it is your courageous faith and intention that will bring you back.

May this serve you

31/05/2018

We always have a choice. Choose to remember your highest truth, even if you can't feel it right now

21/05/2018

Feeling this one. Not only people but situations and the choices that come to us. If you allow yourself to Still inwardly and connect it becomes easier to recognise them and make the choices that best align to your soul

14/04/2018

HAVE YOU HEARD OF LIGHT LANGUAGE?