10/02/2026
This is one of my favourite pictures.. not only because it captures me working with Spirit, but because in this image I was able to actually see myself for the first time in a really f**king long while.
Itās June 2025.
I was lost in the abyss of hormonal f**kery, where intense self harm thought loops were standard and had been that way for months. My work was the only thing keeping me going, and as much of a lifeline work had always been, the thought of standing on stage next to Florence King and doing this platform filled me with dread.
I wasnāt nervous.
I was numb.
As someone who needs their feels switched all the way on to deliver mediumship messages accurately and with love, numb is a s**tty f**king place to be.
l stood in the carpark before I went on stage and sobbed.
My usual platform prep of listening to tunes and opening up gently wasnāt cutting it. I could feel myself starting to spiral.
I begged Spirit to help me through.
āWeāre hereā They said.
āBreatheā They said.
āTrust usā They said.
I had lost so much trust and confidence within myself that I genuinely didnāt believe that I could deliver.
But I did trust Spirt.
And I always trust what they ask of me to do.
I got my ass up on stage, and my intuitive muscle memory kicked in. Cracking jokes and delivering messages in the way that only I can, I started to find my groove. My evidence was strong. My connections were locked in. I had the audience laughing and crying in equal amounts.. and then the real healing happened.
My last message came from a young man who had passed in a vehicle accident. He was funny, mischievous, and explained that he was there not only to see his sister, but to help me.
This wonderful soul gave me a profound gift that night. Something that only he and I could understand.
He chose me to deliver the message to his sister so she could find some space amongst her grief.. but his other goal was to help me find some perspective amongst my own.
Truly, a remarkable soul.
Please understand that I do not say this next part lightly..
What he shared with me that night saved my life.
He sat with me my entire drive home. He helped reorient my brain every time my thoughts drifted, distracting me when I gripped the steering wheel too tight. He showed me patience. Love. Compassion. He understood what my brain was doing and had chosen to do everything he possibly could to help me through.
From that night, my self harm-y thoughts stopped.
And I havenāt had them since.
This is what makes this work so f**king beautiful.
So f**king powerful.
Platform demonstrations arenāt just healing for those who receive a message on the night. Everyone in the room has the chance, for a couple of hours at least, to feel connected to their loved ones. To hold space for other peopleās loved ones. And to use the energies of each connection for their own healing and growth.
I f**king love that this is my calling.
I f**king love that this wonderful man.. a complete stranger.. is now woven into my story. My healing.
And I f**king love that I can share all of this with you.
Thank you to every person who has given me the honour of bringing through your loved ones.
I canāt wait to see who comes through on the 27th.
Big love,
Jaceš¤š¤
Ps limited tickets left available. Link below.
https://www.trybooking.com/DIWWZ
