22/10/2025
I opened my current art book where I get to create doodles, calligraphy and/or write in, when I need to express but not sure what
So what comes out is what comes out (with a little bit of structure)
I had written this early last week when I was really struggling mentally. I had a dark cloud of sadness shrouding me and I was teary, feeling unworthy and unwanted. My feelings came out in the words below in the photo
I had my white gelly pen and i was going over the doodling i had done a while back when I couldnt ignore my mind chatter anymore and suddenly these words were formed on the paper in front of me.
I poured it out and it landed on the black page. I stared at it for a while. I took notice of the words and connecting the meaning of them connecting to me. I took a moment to acknowledge and accept that this is what my body needs to express. So thats what I did
I acknowledged each emotion and accepted that they are here because they need to be felt.
However, even though I sat in silence accepting this moment, there were voices yelling out to erase them. Scribble over them. Make them disappear
Shame came up! What would people think of me reading this? Ive exposed my insecurities and everyone's going to make fun of me and use it against me. Cover it up! Stop being vulnerable! It's not safe!
I heard them. I listened to them and I chose to leave it just as it is. Out in the open for the world to see
Reflecting on this right now and ive realised i have healed more parts of me without even realising i had. I was able to measure my growth. Post traumatic growth
That moment that I chose to accept and share my feelings with the world, to not cover them up, scribble them out, or make them disappear. I accepted a part of me just a little bit more today: by not covering them up, scribbling them out, or making them disappear. I accepted a part of me just a little bit more today, just as I am
Healing just doesn't happen in session, it can happen anywhere. By consciously choosing to do something different, to change your response, to get different results, you are creating a new pathway to walk down. A new you!
There are 3 voices in your head; fear, the others, and your higher self. So how do you know the difference? Your higher self only knows how to speak in love. You just need to quieten the other 2 to be able to hear it ❤️