24/01/2021
👉🏽I try to cover my anxiety so that nobody sees me weak 😞
Sally reached out to Umatter to share her story with the whole world.
👧 “Very often I feel weak, I feel empty, and numb.
It was around one year ago when I suffered panic attacks. I was feeling sick, not wanting to go into work. I had depression as well; I didn’t even want to get out of bed, I just wanted to hide. I work in a company full of people and I felt like I just want to hide from everyone and be in my own bubble.
I wear my makeup every morning imagining that it’s going to help me hide my struggle and pain so that nobody sees me weak and feels am not able to do my job.
One of my worst anxiety symptoms is dizziness. I get it constantly, even when I don’t feel particularly anxious. I felt terribly dizzy before I left my house, but fought through it and made it to my work.
Usually, when struggling with anxiety, I keep my mouth shut. I push through it, not wanting to mention to whoever is with me at the time how I feel, worried about ruining their time, or making them feel awkward. But last month during a business meeting I couldn’t. I needed to lie down. I needed to shut down and let this pass. I was on the edge of a full-blown panic attack and was terrified.
I sat on the floor curled up in a ball, my legs barely functioning. Till my colleagues pulled me up and gave me some water, assuming I could be ill.
When I collected myself and managed to give any excuse to leave work and head home, I realised no matter what people will think of me, I must seek help.
This is where I came across Umatter and felt like it was a message from god that tells me I must do something about my anxiety and panic attacks.
I am now seeing a therapist recommended by Umatter. I am forever grateful to you guys 🙏💜.”
👉🏽 - Even if you leave anxiety alone for too long or try to mask it, it won’t leave you alone. It’s time to deal with it.