12/12/2025
“I’ve become a figment of my imagination.”
The first line of The Mountain Is You by Chance Peña, and the line that cracked me open the other day.
We had just wrapped up a beautiful SIT + SoulFlow™️ session on releasing perfectionism and the ache of never feeling good enough.
And as we dropped into integration, that song came on… and that first line hit.
Instant tears.
Because years ago, I remember sensing this version of me hovering just outside myself.
A thought bubble I couldn’t quite hear yet… but I could feel it.
And slowly it got clearer.
I started seeing myself facilitating.
Seeing myself impacting people’s lives in ways that ripple into their families and communities.
Seeing myself on stages, even big ones.
And seeing myself as a leader… not one who performs, but one who leads from embodiment and integrity, even when it’s fu***ng hard.
And the wildest thing?
I’ve become that figment.
The thing I once only imagined… I’m living it now.
I’m speaking on stages.
I’m leading powerful groups.
I’m facilitating work that melts people open in the best way - without performing, without proving, without pretending.
And another layer hit me just as hard:
For years, the belief looping in my system was,
“I’m not good enough. I’ll never be good enough.”
So to stand there, guiding this deep work, and FEEL how far I’ve come?
It moved me to my core.
Because the woman who once believed she wasn’t enough…
is now the woman leading with truth, integrity, and impact.
And here’s the part I’m most proud of:
This didn’t happen by accident.
It happened because I went first.
The work I guide people through?
I live it.
I breathe it.
I walk myself through the fire before I ever hold someone else in it.
I’m always a student.
Always growing.
Always evolving.
Always choosing to rise.
That’s what real leadership is.
Not performance.
Not perfection.
Embodiment.
Integrity.
The willingness to go first… again and again and again.
