04/16/2026
It’s 9 years today that you left us Mom; the start of this grief journey that has shaped these years, the era of death and survival.
I know so much more about you now, I understand you so much more. You were a tight lipped enigma I tell ya, but finally understanding your trauma helped me let go of so much of my own. In many ways my grief for you,as much as your loss was abrupt and mind bending, was put on a shelf a bit as my focus switched to Dad, helping him through his illness and when I lost him I thought the grief for him would break me. All the while I still felt you, I tried to look more deeply into your patterns to understand my own. Finding and connecting with your son Tad gave me so much; a massive piece of the puzzle fell into place and a connection with my big brother that fills my heart with joy. I know how happy this makes you, I know there are no mistakes and I know how healed and joyful you are now. This alone gives me such comfort. I am wildly grateful to you for all that you’ve given me and for being the best grandmother to my kids that there ever could be. Miss you Mom⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️💖