10/15/2025
The Baby I Never Held
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I felt you,
But I never saw you.
It was a daylight robbery,
Stealing your life in a hurry.
“There. Is. No. Heartbeat.”
Words from the doctors seat,
Our future faded away,
As I wept for you to stay.
Knowing you still lived there,
But would be leaving me soon,
Accepting my body’s betrayal,
As I longed for the chance to cradle you.
I wept myself dry,
And I sang prayers to the night,
My body defied me,
And I could see no more light.
Joy never came the next morning,
There was no dancing inside of my mourning,
I walked through the loss as bare as can be,
And felt every part of it, no stoics for me.
There is now one less child,
Sat around my table,
One less pancake to flip,
And one less kid to be playful.
There’s onesies in boxes,
That will never be worn,
And a family future,
That will never be born.
So I see you, dear mothers,
Clasping empty wombs,
There’s no rainbow or tomorrows
To negate all these sorrows.
I see you.
You see me.
Together we grieve.
Let’s surround one another,
And for a brighter tomorrow
We shall believe.