04/20/2026
Everyone always told me that there were just some things in life that would hurt, and a lot of them, deeply.
Loss, growth, love.
It's one thing to hear it or read about it, it's quite another to feel it.
I've felt all kinds of physical pain- injuries, surgeries, you name it, it's happened to me.
I like to call that my danger prep.
But every single one of those hurts never compared to the deeply embedded and soul crushing pain of emotional devastation.
You always tell yourself that you're not going to put yourself in that position anymore and that you won't let anyone close..
But I always did.
We can't resist the allure of real and lasting love -
Well, I can only speak for myself.
And in the end, I'm left holding the pieces of a broken heart and a dream of what could have been.
Every relationship is a little different and aches in unique ways.
Especially you.
Definitely you.
From the first moment at our terrible introduction and even worse first impression,
We both thought there was no way.
Until there was.
I still think back and wondered when did we cross the bridge from no way to definitely yes.
Ah yes, I remember.
I'll probably remember that for the rest of my life.
The kiss.THAT kiss.
In a parking garage on a weekday night around the corner from everything but in the middle of nothing...
We found each other.
Our hearts finally heard the call across that windswept plane that we call love.
To try and describe the fall into love, well, I don't think I can.
I know I can't.
There are just some things in life that are just too beautiful, too deep, too everything.
I say so often that was when love finally found me.
And it's been a heck of a ride, ups and downs, ins and outs..
Us- unique, beautiful and amazing.
But now, we sit on the edge of tomorrow, hurting, trying to find our way, together.
I'd be lying if I said I didn't have doubts.
More like fears.
I can't see my future without you and my arms feel so empty as I long to hold you.
So, yeah, I guess we are at a crossroads, the biggest emotional challenge of our life.
I hold out my hand, almost as if I can feel you there, at shoulders length.
In those solitary chasms of quiet midst the still of the night, I listen for one true thing that has always brought me peace.
Your heartbeat.
Yeah, I know, everyone tells me I can't actually hear your heart.
But then, they've never known a love like ours..
And it's those quiet pulses of hope that remind me once again.
I love you more,
And I don't mean that I love you more than you love me.
I love you more than the bad days that drag us down.
I love you more than any obstacle or pain that tries to tear us apart.
I love you more than any distance between us or any pain we will feel.
I love you more,
And I don't say it out of habit, but as a reminder of that love and those promises..
That I will forever love you more.
And I don't think I'll ever run out of all the ways I love you.
Sometimes, you just gotta fight a little harder for what you believe in..
And I believe in me, you and us.
I always will.
|ravenwolf