07/14/2020
Surprise!! When life throws you lemons...you do your best to make lemonade.
Warning, this post could be a trigger for the trying to conceive/miscarriage community. There have been so many emotions flying round in the last few weeks, it’s been a ride to say the least! So let me take you back to where it all began (well not quite that far, but far enough back to when I found out).
I was laying on the couch and out of nowhere this horrid smell took over...which immediately took me back to when I was pregnant with Sadie. I sat there thinking CRAP! No way could this be happening again. I snuck out to buy a test and took it the next morning. My hands were shaking, I felt sick thinking about it, and within seconds the test came back positive!
S**t Lucy, what are you going to do! I was in no mind to get pregnant again, we were a happy family of four! We struggled hard to get pregnant with Sadie our second, how could this now be our fate? This wasn’t in our 5 year plan, this wasn’t in our ever plan!
I was in shock, it took me weeks to get my head around (which I am still working on). Worried about my husband without a job, worried about how I could run a business in the current (covid-19) situation let alone while being pregnant, worried we had given all our baby things away, worried I had stopped taking prenatal vitamins a year ago, worried about everything you could possibly think of! I was STRESSED and I was slipping into a depression.
I was feeling sicker and sicker as the weeks went on, constant nausea, lack of energy, I didn’t want to talk to anyone, not even my own mum! The first trimester is a lonely place. So here I am at 9(ish) weeks pregnant...I’m working through it. I’m learning my new reality. Am giving myself grace and forgiveness.
You may have wondered why I haven’t been present on social media...well here it is! The BIG ASS news! I’m pregnant! Having another baby, and trying to figure out life along the way! Stick with me to follow my journey and encourage me along the way.