03/26/2026
I don’t talk about this part of my story very often… especially for the world to see, but here we are…
There was a time where I felt like I was barely holding it together. I was overwhelmed, carrying things I never fully processed, and stuck in patterns I didn’t know how to get out of. I smiled, I showed up, I did what I had to do… but inside, I felt heavy. Disconnected. Exhausted with life. My shine was dull. I was drinking and smoking too much, I was numbing out.
And honestly? I didn’t even realize how far from myself I had drifted.
And then… my dog led me to healing.
He was struggling with car reactivity, and I just wanted to help him. So I had an animal communication/Reiki session, and if I’m being honest… I didn’t even really know what Reiki was at the time. I just knew I loved him enough to try anything.
But that session… it wasn’t just for him.
It cracked something open in me.
Without even realizing it, I had been holding onto so much stress, grief, emotions, old wounds I had buried. I had been in survival mode for so long, it had become my normal.
I remember leaving that session feeling different. Like something in me had finally exhaled. I felt peace. Real, deep, quiet peace.
And that moment changed everything.
Because once you feel that kind of peace… you can’t ignore it. I needed to know more and find that again for myself.
That’s when I signed up for a First Degree reiki training session with the intent to just get the tools to find that peace again. I started to unravel all the bullsh!t, layer by layer.
Not perfectly by all means or all at once. But enough to feel like I was coming back to myself and enough to keep going.
My intuition got louder. I started to listen to that voice inside myself again that I had shushed. I realized I had been surviving for so long… I forgot what it felt like to actually live.
Healing wasn’t pretty. It wasn’t easy and still isn’t. But it was real.
And now, when I hold space for others, I don’t do it from just from something I learned.
I do it from lived experience.
You don’t have to stay stuck either. There is another side to this… and you’re allowed to find it. ♥️