07/11/2017
***'lotus be' closing - important update***
My friends, I have decided to close this chapter of Lotus Be as of noon today, July 11. I know this decision may come as a shock to you, as I myself, would not have imagined writing this email a week ago.
I often forget how fragile and precious life is until something happens that puts everything into perspective. After I found myself hanging out with my 87 year old papa in the Hospital this past weekend, I found myself re-evaluating if I am living in a way that I would regret, while my papa reflected on his life and the time that has passed.
Short answer is yes, I am. As much as I have loved Lotus Be, I have found my personal journey with my family is being compromised from a lack of being in the present moment. I know I won't get the time back and I don't want to have any regrets. My competitive spirit and passion more often than not takes over which is why I have chosen to make this tough decision so I can focus on what matters most.
My dad has always told me to not live like I have an unlimited bank account of time. I know lotus be can thrive, I still believe in its foundations, but the cost (finances aside) is too high. I find myself staring at pictures of Bowie when she was first born with disbelief that she is already about to turn five months old. Life goes by too fast, and right now I just want to put every ounce of energy into being a mom. I want to focus on Bowie and spend our days together without distraction.
I do not take this decision lightly, but I feel a sense of ease that I can only justify as being the right decision. I am not one to quit, I have always had high standards for myself, and "failing" at something has always been out of the question. But I am putting my ego and my pride aside because I want to make the right decision for this chapter of my journey.
Lotus Be has long time been a dream of mine, but before that dream, I dreamed of being a mom, and thanks to the most wonderful and supportive husband, that is what I am now going to pour myself into being at the moment. A job that I too am learning every day.
For those wondering, I am already in the process of returning any remaining balances in Lotus Be and I will have all money returned no later than July 21st 2017. If your membership has not expired you can expect to see money in your account before then.
Words can not express my gratitude and love to those of you who became my Lotus Be family. Thank you for your countless words of encouragement, support, and hugs that always fuelled me and made it possible to have this amazing experience. The building may have been small, but the love inside has always been larger than life.
Here's to new beginnings, living your own definition of success, being completely present in the chaos, and laughing along the way.
I'd like to leave you with some lyrics, that no matter how cheesy, sum up my time with lotus be. So here's a little Green Day for you, and I truly hope you continue to have the "time of your life."
all love,
shauna
"Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right,
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right,
I hope you had the time of life."
