03/19/2026
I have a really hard time being still.
I always need something to do or somewhere to be. I’m not sure if that’s because of the environment I grew up in (always on the go) or the way my brain is wired (how I value productivity) or a combination of both (which is likely the answer).
Since I ended the podcast and stepped away from all things TRM, I’ve really been trying to ✨chill✨. Outside of my full-time job: there have been no projects, no deadlines, no pressure. I could end my work day at 5pm, and then just like do whatever I wanted? Watch tv, read for hours, meal prep, cuddle with Tessa, etc.
But it’s been hard! As Chayse would say, “I’ve never seen someone get so stressed about not having something to do”. It’s both a strength and a weakness and I’m learning how to find some sort of balance between rest and productivity.
I was actually offered a few different speaking opportunities over the last 3 months, and I said NO! Past Angelica would have lost her mind over me letting people down, not saying yes to every opportunity, and losing out on a chance to “grow”.
But I’m realizing now that I’ve still been growing, just in different ways. I was able to recognize that I needed a break. I chose to do things that matched my energy. I took time to think about what I really want out of TRM (I still don’t have an exact answer though so pls don’t ask me any questions lol).
Moral of the story: this break was much needed. I feel refreshed and creative and ready to start a new adventure.
Thanks for reading, bye 👋
