01/07/2026
The Sacred Tug-of-War Between Who I Was and Who I Am
As we settle back into life after the holidays, many people are rushing into resolutions, fresh starts, and “new year, new me” energy… but for me, it feels very different. With the Snake year entering its final phase before the Fire Horse rises in February, I find myself pulled inward instead of forward. There is deep reflection happening, and with it an honest internal tug-of-war between who I once needed to be and who I am now.
There are parts of me that have served their purpose beautifully. The healer, the protector, the over-giver, the people-pleaser, the one who did it all and held everything together. Those versions taught me so much about who I was and how I defined myself.
I honour them deeply, and yet I can feel those patterns holding on tightly, while my heart, my intuition, and my body are standing firm and whispering… “It’s time.” Time to stop dimming myself. Time to stop searching outside of myself. Time to stop hiding behind roles, expectations, and beliefs that kept me contained for far too long.
This feels like standing face to face with both the old version of me vs who I am now, and so I am meeting them not with blame, judgment, or resistance, but with compassion. and love.
I choose to sit in the depth of this transformation instead of rushing through it. I’m allowing myself to feel it, honour it, and bless and release what no longer serves. And in this space, I feel a silent power emerging, a deeper knowing as I surrender and trust my soul self to guide me into the best version of me.A version that leads from the heart, authenticity, and stands unapologetically in truth allowing what has always existed beneath the layers to finally breathe.
May this message find the hearts that need it, offering reassurance, presence, and a gentle reminder that you're not alone and your journey matters.
And so it is.
Universal Healing