04/16/2023
Caution: trigger warning and graphic photos
Accepting change
Sometimes it’s so difficult to accept change. Some people say to embrace change. But sometimes that is all too easy to say because we know that change will hurt.
Many of you know that I live with a chronic condition and I go to the hospital every three weeks for blood transfusions. I’ve done this since I’ve been months old. Most of what happened when I was growing up in the hospital was out of my control. As I got older, I did have some options like if I wanted a treatment or not, the day I would go in for treatment, which arm I will use for infusion, which specific spot on my arm I will use for infusion, or sometimes even which nurse I want to start my IV.
My veins have become scarred over the years. This is a normal progression of getting infusions every three weeks. During the infusion appointment I had last Friday I had,to decide if I wanted to use a new spot where the IV would go in. My usual, preferred spot was becoming too difficult to have the IV put in because of the scarring on the vein. They would have to try 3-4 times and often it was painful.
I always cringed at the idea of having it done on my hand. So close to the bone. How will it feel? Will it be too painful throughout the 5 or so hours I am there? Will I get scarred tissue there as well? How will it look when I work out in the gym or I am out in public?
I mustered up all the courage I could and agreed to have it done on my hand. It wasn’t the most favourable option for me but it was up to me! It was scary. But I knew this was inevitable and my arms couldn’t offer the option of having my IV in there anymore.
I’m not saying this for pity. I’m saying this to help people realize that everyone goes through certain changes in their lives that they may find hard, scary, and painful.
You don’t have to have a chronic condition to experience painful change. However, there is a whole different level of scariness when it comes to living with a chronic condition! There’s a whole lot of unknown territory and uncertainty that comes along with it. This is what creates the fear.
When we don’t know, we get scared.
What’s important is that you know you have options! Look around for those who truly love you and receive their support, and believe that ultimately you will be OK. If you don’t have that support around you, it is up to you to go seek it. It doesn’t have to be a friend. It can be someone who has gone through or is going through a similar thing. It can also be a coach who has those kinds of life experiences like myself. 😊
If you need to talk about fear around your condition, change around your life, or you need support going through some difficult times, book your free discovery session with me. I would love to hear from you.
Support is crucial during change. You only need to take the first step and ask for help.
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