01/30/2026
As I drove up the mountain last weekend to host a Shakti Nectar day retreat in Chilliwack at the lavender farms, a realization came over me
These were the same lands, down the way, many years ago as a child that I would visit with my family —a well known dairy farm. They were a wealthy and powerful Sikh family. I always creeped out by this uncle, the head of the farm, who is considered to be like a priest or saint.
Many years later, maybe 10 years ago an Indian mother came forward with an accusation against this man. She was able to take this case to the Supreme Court of Canada and he was successfully prosecuted for molesting and abusing her as a child over a period of years as a farm hand more than 30 years ago.
I remember how much that case shook me to my core when I heard about it as an adult. Because he had been close to our family, and we all trusted him. But I knew in my gut even as a child that he was not a safe person —a predator.
I didn’t want to dampen the mood of the retreat, but I felt a strong urge to start the retreat with a singing circle, and I shared the story with the group.
A vivid dream came to me the night before — I was singing to the mountains and the sun, in the native Peruvian Quechua language : Taita Inti= father Sun.
and that’s exactly how it was at the Retreat: big mountains and a shining sun.
I was scared to share this triggering story with the group, and I was scared to share my song .
But I did anyway anyways.
The spirituality —at least the one that I want to live- is about Truth — not all “love and light” or performance.
As we begin to shake and move in this Taita Inti song came through me with the group, I invited all the women to share their voices as loud as they could so it would shake the entire land and heal this wound of trespass that was in was in the lineage and in the lands of Chilliwack.
So many of us, especially Indian women are healing from the effects of patriarchal abuse, and learning what it actually means to be a sensual embodied woman free of sxual shame and what it means to hold divine masculine within and without.
I don’t have all the answers, but I do know - that shame was never ours to carry.
To all the women who suffered in this way and feel frozen in their body, I send you so much fierce strength, and compassion. Know that the deeper you begin to explore your body not as a project to be fixed, but as a sacred act of ongoing intimacy -that you will feel that vibrancy return again.
We are re~ membering
🌀🐉🙏🏽🌹
Abneet