04/09/2026
I never considered myself beautiful.
If anything, I felt the opposite — like there was something “off” about me.
Awkward, not pretty… sometimes even ugly in my own eyes.
And I’m not writing this to hear “you’re beautiful.”
This isn’t about compliments.
This is about how our self-image is formed.
Only now, when I look at my old photos, I catch myself thinking:
“Damn… I was beautiful.”
A soft smile.
A round face.
Something natural and alive.
But the most important part is — I remember how I felt back then, when those photos were taken.
I couldn’t see any of it.
I was “not enough” for myself.
And here is the truth:
Beauty is not about how you look.
It’s about who you believe you are inside.
I don’t want to go into trauma or the past here.
The real question is:
What can I do today, despite everything I’ve been through, to stop seeing myself through those old eyes?
For me, the answer right now is:
— noticing how I speak to myself
— learning to see instead of judge
— coming back into my body instead of old feelings
— and slowly stopping being harsh with myself
You don’t have to suddenly “love yourself.”
Sometimes it’s enough to begin with
not hurting yourself from the inside.
And maybe one day, you’ll look at yourself
and see not flaws —
but a human being.