05/01/2018
So today is Tuesday and I decided to just write my intentions for the coming months, and share the beginning feels with you.
If some of you didn't know, I suffered a heart attack (actually 2), this past September. I was training at my gym when I felt an overwhelming burning sensation across my chest, and over the course of 20 minutes other signs became evident that something was very wrong.
After being admitted to hospital and told I had had a Heart attack, I was shocked and strongly in denial. I mean how could it be...? I am strong, no heart problems, perfect cholesterol, clean diet, fit and good blood pressure always.
After another attack while in hospital on third day, they were finally able to diagnose my issue by angiography. I had a Spontaneous Coronary Artery Dissection, in laymen terms... An artery feeding my heart muscle, had sustained an inner lining tear. This torn tissue affectively falls down in to flow of blood, and creates a blockage that starves the heart of oxygen.
I have recently come to find out that because of stress, both physical and mental, as well as a history of multiple pregnancys (8) which creates an environment of high levels of estrogen for extended periods of time....and leads to the weakening of arterial walls.
With my experience in September, and the change in my lifestyle I have been forced to accept....I slipped into a depression, felt very picked on and lost.
But I have come out of my pity party finally, which is a very uncomfortable place for me to be. I sabotaged myself with self soothing foods and alcohol for quite long enough....long enough to feel like crap on a daily basis, have chronic insomnia and gain 20lbs.
To be honest, I am guesstimating my number of gained pounds because I am a chicken to get on the scale....but my baggiest jeans are tight, and my b***s are overflowing my bras, so I'm thinking I'm pretty accurate.
My plan is to weigh myself next Monday, since I will have cleaned up my nutrition (that's my way of saying I've been in a caloric deficit with lower carbs, and higher protein/fat) for two weeks.
I have given up the almost daily bubbly that soothed my anxiety, and replaced it with sparkling water and a feeling of self acceptance.
This is just a starting point to a new life, a new me and positive sustainable changes.
Thank you for reading!!
Let's crush our goals together, and incorporate all the most important parts of our lives into a solid plan that can withstand all the ups AND downs life has to offer.
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