09/28/2025
UNLEARNING & REFINING
..these words that best describe this season of life. Especially as I dive into my 200-hour Yoga Teaching Training, examining what I learned over a decade ago and deciding what should stay, what needs unlearning & what needs refining.
As I sat down with my new copy of Evolving Your Yoga by my teacher , it occurred to me that this may be about the time that I first read it 6 years ago before meeting Barrie in January of 2020 on her book tour & presenting her with a Nautilus bracelet I made in honor of this book that transformed my life (pictures 1 & 2).
Sept 28/19 (picture 3)
The LaDawn today is so very different than the LaDawn back then. Each day was a struggle, just trying to make it to the next day as I dealt with Rob's declining mental health and our strained marriage.
I had Izzy & I had yoga and they were my literal lifelines, my saving grace in coping with my life. I am so very thankful that that past version of me carried on despite the heaviness of life but I actually find it hard to relate to her today as my life has changed so radically these past 6 years.
Sept 28/25 (pictures 4 & 5)
Blank pages before me, waiting to be filled, imagining where I'll be 6 years from now. If you had told me in 2019 that I'd be celebrating 9 years of become-yoga with Izzy & Hunter by my side in my home studio, I might have slapped you upside the head.
But if you told me that the only way for life to get that good was that in the next month, I would have to walk through my darkest days, I'm not sure how I would have responded.
I guess that's why the journey unfolds without our knowing. As much as we may wish to peer into the future, the Divine has a larger plan that doesn't always make sense in the moment.
I keep telling people that I don't know how I made it to Montreal to start the 200-hour YYT in August (literally with the 24-hour flight delay & figuratively!). The Divine orchestrated all these little steps along the way, and here I am...unlearning & refining as I trust divine timing that all parts of the journey are sacred & holy 🙏
