09/02/2021
🤷♀️ Is it depression or despair?
I was describing how I’ve been feeling, 17 months into this pandemic, to my . I was having a hard time putting it into words.
“I have some things coming up that I normally feel really excited about, but I feel, meh”, I said. “I’m having a hard time setting goals and having a vision for myself. Any time I come up with something, I feel, meh.”
“Is it depression?”, I said.
“I still feel excitement and joy in the moment.”
One of my friends said, “It’s despair; the feeling you get when you feel hopeless, in your case, from a loss of connection.” (I had just told them I was also feeling lonely.)
Yes. That.
Another friend said, “languish”.
To languish is to suffer from being forced to remain in an unpleasant place or situation.
❓Who else knows that feeling?
I’m feeling it HARD right now.
As a long-time student and now a mother to a child who goes to school, September has always felt like a time to set goals in line with my vision for myself and my family and to get back into routine. This year feels, meh.
But I’m sure not going to let it stay that way.
My plan?
I’m going to set up some structure. Structure creates freedom. My structure is going to include lots of self-care that includes:
☑️ moving my body daily
☑️ Meditation (I’m going to start with 5 minutes a day)
☑️ Eating more vegetables
☑️ massage and acupuncture
☑️ facials
☑️ And friends, lots of friends
❓ Do you have any plans to help bust out of the ‘meh’ feeling? If so, share in the comments as I’m going to add to my list once I’m consistent with the above.
📸:: enjoying some alone time on the dock - also good for helping to move through the despair.
