08/29/2020
Hey guys,
I have a big apology to make. Derek and I have been loving our family bike rides. Today we proudly rode with our GCC jerseys. But at this point I know that Iām not going to make it to my 500 km goal.
There have been a lot of stresses in our life lately. This has been an extremely challenging month. My mental health has significantly deteriorated as a result. Most days I have difficulty getting out of bed, let alone meeting a very testing goal like this one.
Anyone who knows me, knows that I hate to fail. If things are not going my way, I just need to work harder, learn more, focus and devote my time. I believe that individuals can do anything if they just decide to do it. Life takes work and time but any goal is achievable. So at this point, the idea that Iām publicly failing and canāt achieve something I have set my mind to is devastating and a true testament to my current state.
Iām thankful for all the people who have been there for us lately. Those who came to visit or sent tiny notes and gifts to help lift my spirits. My parents have canceled plans and made themselves available to help care for Evie. Theyāve made some very gentle efforts to lure me from my bedroom. All this kindness has made me decide to be kind to myself and accept that sometimes switching to a new goal, like caring for my body and soul, isnāt failing itās just changing my priorities.
Derek on the other hand is absolutely determined to meet his cycling goal, despite all the new pressure and worry being placed on his shoulders. Heās been cycling every day after work.
When I met Derek, I was at first appalled š, but then grew to appreciate, the fact that he is unbreakably honest. He also is the greatest example of a good person. If youāve ever taken the time to discuss philosophy with him you would know that the impact Derek makes on the world is very important to him. All he wants is to make the world a better place and to teach his kids to do the same. He sees the value in small everyday acts and his commitment to this is resolute. Iām very proud that one of us has the strength to carry our family and achieve the goals that are important to us. Weāre a team, today he is strong and hopefully when he needs me, Iāll be able to do the same for him.
Fly high our sweet warrior, you are never far from our thoughts. šā¤ļøšš²
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