12/03/2026
For years I have been birthing this retreat without realizing what was forming. The Black Madonna — guardian of the Romani gypsies, the Sicilian keeper of dark fertile mysteries — has been calling me home through my mother’s bloodline.
Through my own body and wounds.
My 3 year journey with fractured fertility - unconscious abortion, a devastating miscarriage, severe hormone imbalance, resurfaced child sexual trauma… it has been an initiation that is asking now, clearly, to be liberated so I can birth my child, through a clean body.
My journey with a fractured mother line… displacement, trauma, mental illness. My great-grandmother, a Sephardic Jew forced from her homeland, growing up in Tunisia, an entire hidden life of hidden Kabbalah magic, an entire storyline of mystery I never knew until recently.
My journey with darkness… the fear I still hold for the mother, with the ways I still run from womb, sensation, matter, earth.
All of it has been guiding me here. This retreat has become the most sacred and intimate offering I have ever created through Anam Cara. And by some godly grace, my teacher is by my side, bursting with song and seismic love.
I am weeping golden tears of awe for this path, for the women inside this container, for their stories, their courage, the power that has already shaken us to our bones as we invoke the Black Madonna and reawaken the gnosis encoded in our DNA.
Something so ancient is remembering itself. And as the world is burning, I somehow feel entirely helpless and fiercely clear on the space I’ve been gifted to create change on this planet.
Healing our wombs, our mother-lines, our numb suffering.
Awakening women from the dangerous slumber we’ve been stagnant in for far too long.
We have space for 1 more woman who feels the call to join us in Spain March 21-27 🪶 to alchemize her story forward and back through generations.
🌹 I am so blessed this is my life. I bow to this medicine. To my teachers. To Her.
Thank you for letting me share the deepest threads of my heart’s work with you.
Bless🪬