02/01/2026
December forced me to unwind and take a necessary big break: The year had been full of extreme logistics, moving various times, establishing in a new country and city, loads and loads of paperwork, back and forth, all while keeping up with my creative work I had built over all the last years. It was a special challenge, the biggest one to simply stay healthy and strong enough in all of the often simultaneous storms of stepping into the unknown. I lost my voice, could not hear myself for over a week. Interesting one to be looking at myself almost from the outside, knowing I actually was inside but it sounded like I wasn’t there 😂 This year in various key moments of my work I was extremely challenged by external factors out of my reach - it felt like life wanted me to become basically bullet proof. To not even blink with an eye anymore, to simply be present, embody, no matter whatever the f*** is happening around me. To not give up on what I love and stand for, on what I created with all my heart, sweat, even tears over so many years ☀️ the last gong meditation event of this year was so symbolic: it was all about maintaining boundaries, a safe protected space, maintaining your focus, no matter what all the external world is just conjuring or not.. the reward was sweet: peace, softness, a good laugh and marvelously feeling connected and very alive 🫶
