01/11/2025
MY CALL TO GREENLAND 🇬🇱❤️
So I've been wanting to write this update for a while to share about my decision to move to Greenland and what put me on this path.
But out of character for me, I haven't been able to find the words. It feels quite sensitive and raw for some reason, but maybe that is the point of it.
This is gonna be one of the long ones so maybe make a cup of tea or ceremonial cacao to sip while you read it 😉
Everything happened so fast from the first time I was here in April visiting Mikkel Dencher Nielsen and never having been on Greenland or had any connection to it (the latter turned out not to be entirely true though).
I came naively thinking it would just be a lot of snow and that would be it (I admit it feels a bit shameful to have spoken so casually about this place looking back 🙈).
I was in no way prepared for what hit me when I landed here. I was in awe of the landscape and nature here. Especially the mountains filled me with this deep awe (which didn't feel as deep even in the mountains of Peru). I felt the enormous raw force and power of the mountains and this place in general.
Those of you who follow me on here probably saw the posts from my trip so I won't go into long details but to recap I was completely knocked over by the energy and it took me a week and some much needed help from Rakel - Angakker to find a way to navigate this intensity 🥴 I only ever felt such an intense surge and movement of energy one time; in Bali years ago where I still hadn't quite learned how to cooperate with my awakened Kuṇḍalinī yet. So I was pretty surprised by this sudden intensified energy surging through my body making me dizzy, feeling everyone around me energetically (Mikkel had to do most of the shopping since I couldn't go into the supermarket without feeling everyone's pain manifesting in my own body), and seeing light flashes and shadows everywhere.
It helped to go on a boat trip away from Nuuk. It calmed my system to be at sea, immersed in the beautiful, calming nature, feeling small among the huge icebergs and feeling the crisp, cold air on my face ❄️
I was fascinated by the beautiful, natural textures that were everywhere in nature, and I kept seeing faces showing up in the mountains for some seconds and then disappearing again🗿
I was reminded in more ways than one that I was a foreigner on this land and I had completely forgotten to do an offering and ask for permission from the beings here, to be here. So I put out a spirit plate the next day and did a small ceremony with rapé in the evening to open myself up to communication with spirit. The next day my energy had calmed down and even though I still saw and felt spirits everywhere I didn't feel overwhelmed by the energy anymore.
I had my first meeting with Aviaja Rakel Sanímuinaq Kristiansen some days after and it felt deeply profound! She felt strangely familiar to me and our meeting brought me to tears without me quite understanding why. She told me that spirits had been telling her about me since winter last year, that she knew I was coming and had been waiting for me. She introduced me properly to The Little People and I understood that those were the faces I had seen in the mountains. A lot of ancestors showed up and I was asked if I would say yes to working with them. My yes was clear and without hesitation and I was gifted something from them that I will never forget the feeling of! She also told me that I would be back in Greenland and that I would move here. I was not doubting that it would be back but moving there - yeah right, like that was going to happen 😅
I left my meeting with Aviaja Rakel feeling in awe and my human brain confused about what had just unfolded but with a deep knowing that this would change my life in ways I had no way of predicting.
When I got home things started to move fast. For a long time I had known that it was not sustainable for me to keep living in my house. It was way over my capacity to maintain a wooden house and a big garden all by myself not being very handy or having anyone to teach me. Also I dreamed of more financial freedom instead of having to constantly work more than what felt right and good to my integrity and my nervous system. Feeling like I HAD to take on clients to pay my bills and not because it felt right and good to me, felt yukky and outright wrong!
Then my grandfather offered me a solution where I could rent his apartment cheap since it was not being used after he was put in a nursing home. Even though it didn't feel good having to leave my house (which I adored and felt safe in), the countryside and nature I decided it was the most responsible decision and at least I would be getting closer to the city and most of my friends living there.
So I put my house up for sale while preparing myself mentally for moving into my grandfather's apartment in Hvidovre. I had fun picturing how I would decorate it and the idea of living there slowly grew on me.
Then my grandfather passed away. Which was a big loss and grief process in itself. Losing him was hard and with him I also lost the last one of my living grandparents. But on top of that it turned out that there was not enough money in his inheritance to buy the apartment so my mom had to sell it.
I had put my house up for sale and now didn't have anywhere to move to. Part of me hoped my house then wouldn't get sold but I also knew it wasn't a sustainable solution in the long run.
After 2 weeks the realtor called and told me someone wanted to buy my house at asking price, which would have been something to celebrate, had it not been for the fact that it made me homeless.
I laid awake at night wondering what to do and entertaining every possible option. Mikkel had before, somewhat serious somewhat jokingly, suggested that I come live with him, saying he had a room available for me. And suddenly that suggestion was starting to look like a real option.
Some weeks later Aviaja Rakel came to Denmark and I met up with her at an event where she had to do a speak. I jokenly told her that I might move to Greenland after all, since I soon didn't have a place to live and she just responded with "when are you coming?" 😂
Sitting listening to her talk, something just clicked in me and I decided that if the sale would actually happen I would do the move to Greenland. When I checked my email in the break I had gotten an email from the realtor saying that the papers on the sale were now ready to be signed and I knew I had gotten my answer.
As if that wasn't enough of a sign Aviaja Rakel invited me to join her Shamanic Course the coming weekend where, among other things, we would go on two drum journeys. The first one led us to our power animal; a snake for me that had some interesting messages, that feels right to keep to myself. But on the second one we were guided to meet our ancestors.
Part of me feels really vulnerable to share this but it feels important to do so anyways.
On this journey I met my grandfather and grandmother (my grandmother passed in 2019). My grandfather needed to talk to me. He told me that I was never supposed to move into his apartment but was always meant to go to Greenland. That the promise of his apartment was a ruse by spirit because they knew I would never give up my house without a safety net. He told me, which I had completely forgotten, that he had lived in Greenland but left earlier than he was supposed to because the darkness was too much for him. Now I had to finish what he started (on a soul level). Coming out of the drum journey I couldn't stop crying, feeling so overwhelmed by that message and seeing my grandfather again safely united with my grandmother. I still feel it deeply and have tears streaming down my cheeks just now, writing about it 😭
After that there was not a shred of doubt in my mind. I knew what to do and where to go.
It was a couple of intense months that followed, sorting everything and packing down my house while also squeezing in a festival and last minute medicine retreat to sit with the grandmother again before my move.
I felt a little irresponsible going on a festival and medicine retreat, such a short time before my move but my intuition told me it was important. I did a post on both so I won't go into lengthy detail about it here but what the medicine showed and taught me was indeed important for my journey ahead and I'm grateful I, once again, listened to my intuition and the grandmother's call 🌿 On the retreat I also found the drum I had been looking for, for a long time, and of course it turned out to be made from reindeer 🦌
I was really grateful to see how I had people in my life who, without a thought stepped up and helped me with the packing down of my house 🙏🏻 The move felt like having to climb mount everest and I know I could not have done it alone!
A special deeply grateful shout out to Chris Borup Hansen who stepped up for days in a row helping me pack in such an effective way that weeks of work was done in days! I owe you one my friend ❤️! And also to Kamali Leonessa for messaging me out of the blue offering her help after having met me one time. You are one of the most effective, creative and caring packers I've ever seen! You were seriously a Godsend ❤️!
Even with help it was overwhelming and one day when I sat in the middle of moving boxes feeling discouraged, know that Chris and I had to spend a whole day driving all the way to Aalborg with my stuff to have it shipped to Greenland in a containership, I said to spirit "if you are serious about me going to Greenland, I'm gonna need some help here". The next day Mikkel called and asked if it would be ok for someone to come and pick up my stuff and drive it to Aalborg for me instead. "Uhm yes please!" Thank you spirit 🙇🏼♀️!
I had been really nervous and emotional about having to hand over "my" house to the new people but luckily it was arranged so I could be the one to do it in person. Turned out the family was the sweetest and it turned out the man had been living in Greenland too and we had a shared acquaintance in the cacao business! They told me they would keep the garden wild and that they could feel and wanted to honor the energy I had put into this place. The man told me about his artist friend and how he felt that when buying a painting from him it was important for him to ask for permission to recieve the painting knowing that a piece of his artist friend was put into that painting and he wanted to honor that. He felt the same with his family receiving this house and added that I was always welcome to stop by if I was ever in the neighborhood. I seriously almost broke down crying right then and there. I couldn't have asked for better people to pass my house on to ❤️
I think spirit knows that I have a tendency to question my big life decisions even when they are so guided as they are in my life by now, so to make sure I didn't, one of the last weeks before me leaving I had to drop off some cacao for a friend and what do you know, in one of the neighbors windows was, of course, a Greenlandic flag 🇬🇱 I couldn't help but chuckle a little and think "yeah, yeah I got the message, I am on my way" 😜
And now I'm here and my journey is unfolding in ways I wouldn't have thought.
Yesterday Rakel, Katinnguaq Heilmann and I held an Open House event at me and Mikkels home, thinking maybe a handful would come. We ended up being close to maybe 80-90 people cramped together, people almost sitting on each other to find space in our, suddenly not so big, apartment 😱
I'm still feeling into and landing the energy from yesterday but feeling both deeply touched, grateful and quite raw today.
This is just the beginning! ✨