16/02/2026
I used to dread going home.
Not because of my family.
Because of food.
Food used to haunt me.
Before I arrived, I’d already be negotiating in my head.
How much will I allow myself?
What will I avoid?
When will I “start again”?
Should I restrict before I go?
Every visit felt like a test.
A battlefield.
I remember bingeing through entire stays with my parents.
The whole time.
Eating in secret.
Eating in guilt.
Eating past fullness.
Then promising myself I’d compensate later.
For 22 years, food wasn’t joy.
It was noise.
Pressure.
A constant internal debate.
And here’s the irony.
Now one of the things I love most about going back to the UK
is the food.
I genuinely look forward to it.
What are we going to eat?
Where are we going to go?
What haven’t I had in ages?
The very thing that used to scare me
is now part of the pleasure.
Not because I “fixed” my diet.
Not because I became more disciplined.
But because I removed the pressure.
Food stopped being the enemy.
It stopped being a coping mechanism.
It stopped being a test of my worth.
It became what it was always meant to be.
Part of life.
Part of connection.
Part of memory-making.
This is why I don’t focus on food in my work.
Because food was never the root.
The root was pressure.
Shame.
Survival.
A nervous system that didn’t feel safe.
When that shifts,
everything shifts.
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Mel H Lopez — 🦎Insatiable Mel
Revolutionising Recovery As We Know It
For women walking the Binge to Billions™ journey.