10/12/2020
Having cancer is s**t. I went into the bloods room this morning at the Christie and saw my two fav phlebotomy ladies and just cried on them and to be honest Iโve spent the whole day in tears. Cried on my professor and team, itโs just been a horrendous time, but no different to what other cancer patients endure. For the past 6 weeks, Iโve been admitted twice, had two blood transfusions and my liver has swollen to the point, Iโm now crushing my lungs and bowels. Iโm having an ultrasound sound tomorrow to check and drain any potential fluid, Iโm having two units of blood next week , Iโm in as an out patient mon, tues and thurs. Without my girlfriends I donโt know how I would keep going and my daughter. This is the first huge blip Iโve had so I consider myself lucky but obviously Iโd rather not be here. Hopefully I can start chemo this week, after my transfusions. Iโm sorry Iโve been quiet, but Iโm using all my energy here xx thank you for your lovely and supportive messages ### love them all.
