16/01/2026
It was needing help
and not knowing how to ask for it.
It was watching support fade
while I stayed in the same slow, hard place.
It was realising the person closest to me
didn’t know how to show up for what I was carrying.
And maybe the hardest part?
I stopped expecting they ever would.
At the time, I thought I just needed:
better sleep,
more pacing,
the right supplement,
another test.
But what was actually happening
was that my system had gone quiet.
Muted.
Still bracing for impact,
even when everything looked calm.
I was so used to staying ahead of pain
I didn’t know how to let myself be met in it.
This is the piece most recovery plans miss.
The part where your body doesn’t need fixing...
It just needs help completing what never got to finish.
That’s where my work begins.
If you’re carrying more than anyone can see,
DM me “DEPLETION” and I’ll share what this work could look like for you.