29/12/2025
Things that changed me in 2025 — at 37
A reflection from a high-achieving, autistic, ADHD woman who stopped performing and started listening.
What shifted me wasn’t productivity, optimisation, or another identity upgrade.
It was a series of quiet, structural changes — internal and relational — that altered how my nervous system relates to life.
1. I stopped using achievement to regulate my nervous system
For most of my life, success wasn’t ambition — it was survival.
Achievement gave me safety, predictability, and worth.
In 2025, I saw this clearly:
✨️Overworking wasn’t discipline; it was self-soothing.
✨️Perfectionism wasn’t standards; it was fear management.
✨️Productivity wasn’t purpose; it was nervous-system control.
Letting this go didn’t make me passive.
It made me regulated without performance.
2. I stopped masking my neurodivergence — especially when I was “good at it”
Being high-achieving while autistic and ADHD meant I was praised for coping in silence.
What changed:
✨️I stopped forcing eye contact when my body resisted.
✨️I stopped overriding sensory limits to appear “capable.”
✨️I stopped explaining myself to people committed to misunderstanding me.
Masking is expensive.
Unmasking gave me energy, clarity, and self-trust.
4. I stopped confusing hyper-independence with emotional maturity
Doing everything alone had once kept me safe.
In 2025, I saw the cost.
I practiced:
✨️Letting myself be impacted by others.
✨️Receiving without pre-emptive repayment.
✨️Asking before reaching exhaustion.
Autonomy remained — but it softened into interdependence.
A quiet truth
I’m a recovering high-achiever myself — autistic, ADHD — who understands both the nervous system and the cost of constantly performing.
Healing didn’t make me smaller.
It made my life quieter, my relationships cleaner, and my sense of self non-negotiable.
And that changed everything.
If you’re reflecting on your own shifts — especially beneath competence, success, or “having it together” — notice this:
What no longer works for your nervous system, even if it once made you impressive?
That question is often where real change begins.