12/07/2022
The 21st July is so special to me ❤️
On the 21st July 2010 I was 17 weeks pregnant with my Ivf baby, Aiyana who is pictured below and almost nine now.
Previously I had lost my first baby in June 2008 and the following two years had been extremely difficult. A short time after June 2008, I lost two more babies and was left infertile due to bilateral Fallopian tube loss and ectopic pregnancy.
I had a failed Ivf in October 2009 which just amplified the devastation.
In April 2010 I was lucky enough to receive a positive test with my second Ivf. But my happiness was short lived. I had a massive bleed at 7 weeks. I was told I had a septum between the twin sacs and one was gone. I had a little heartbeat but there was a huge blood clot beside it.
I spotted and bleed for a full 8 weeks. My scans were weekly and I was looked after extremely well by Dr David Glenn.
On the 21st July 2010, the spotting had stopped and I was told at a scan that evening that Aiyana was growing really well and the clot site was gone
This was the first time I believed I maybe could be a mummy in real life. As I was a mummy but only in my heart. I didn’t have my babies.
This is Aiyana and I now. The little girl I gave life to but really she gave me my life back.
Every so often I have a patient that feels hopeless and I sometimes feel hopeless too. That we’ve done everything we can and it seems there are too many obstacles.
But then I remind myself of my gorgeous Aiyana and I just find the words to help them fight back.
If you are reading this and feeling lost, you are not lost, you can get through this.
Ruthellen
