Hello everyone and welcome to my page.
My name is Dawn I am 32 years of age from Glasgow and I am a mum of a lovely tribe of 8 adorable children especially when they are getting everything their own way, I have 2 girls and 6 boys one who is no longer with us and that's how my journey began.
Two and a half years ago my partner and I were expecting our first baby together well his first my 7th I have 6 of my children to my ex husband (yes I am also divorced)and yes they are all to the same dad a question I get asked time and again.Anyway nothing could excite me more as I love boys they are so much easier than girls im sure a lot of you can relate to that, it was a boy and we only had 19 weeks left to meet him or did we....
Justin was born on the 27th January 2016 asleep after 3 days of being in labour, nothing can you prepare you for anything like this I had 6 healthy children before how is it possible and WHY?Their was something about that day an essence of calm that will never leave me. Leaving hospital with empty arms and leaving my son was one of the hardest things I have been through and I have been through some really hard issues in life but this their is no words.Im quite a deep person and don't show emotion very well or so i thought I learned that was untrue and I am the opposite that was a hard pill to swallow accepting that I do have feelings and emotions not having to put a persona on and keep continuing the way that I had thought kept me safe for years(due to childhood trauma) only to realise it was having the opposite effect. So self acceptance was something I had to learn and accept on my journey.
The twins birthday was the 30th of January I had booked a party I couldn't cancel or let them down. I had no choice but to try keep it together I had 6 kids to deal with and my partner was dealing with it in his own way it was his first baby he was distraught but at the same time trying to keep it together for me,so we went to the party and everyone who wasn't family and already knew our circumstances were like where is your bump? you are not even showing yet! Then it hit all our plans with a new baby all our worries how were we going to cope with another one we didn't have to have them anymore.
Something inside me knew I couldn't let everything fall apart including myself, I started going on self development courses and met some lovely women who have now became friends, one of them suggested to me to go on a six week mindfulness course I had never heard of mindfulness before but I thought ok what do I have to loose also at the same time my partner and I had decided not to take any precautions somebody was missing from our lives and we wanted to fill that not replace him as some people accused us of doing,
I completed the 6 weeks and honestly could not believe how much knowledge I had learned and a new way of life, plus the fact its April and my 30th birthday is approaching, did I forget to mention I got engaged also at Valentines day it was my partners way of saying our relationship is strong and we will get through this as one of the nurses at the hospital had told us that the majority of relationships that loose a baby don't make it through the first year.
I had the best 30th a lovely private meal with only family members and friends that mattered then back to my home for a karaoke and disco in my conservatory a huge change to a couple of years before, you could say I was a bit of a wild child in a way out every weekend as I claimed them as my time, I had the kids all week so weekends were for me not realising again at the time that I was escaping life and certain responsibilities.
Its the day after and we have a hangover and then I remember oh yeah my period its due about now why is it not here hmmm I wonder! Off to Tesco I go and pick up a preganancy test thought I will take it but im probably just being impatient.So I leave it in the bathroom and go back to my cleaning from the night before I say to my partner check it but will probably be for the bin, he comes in Dawn its positive im like don't be so silly stop messing around, maybe both of us should have stopped messing around because it is positive OMG
Here we are again how do we react joy,fear,happy,sad or a mixture of them all,We are having our rainbow baby.
To keep my mind occupied I take up more courses, Life Coaching was always something I was interested in so why not now be a time to pursue it and that's what I did I completed my life coaching,hypnotherapy and NLP with Ali Campbell throughout my pregnancy which turned out to be a very healthy successful one at that and Erin was born on the 8th December 2016,we had an awful start to the year to then end it with a miracle.
In the meantime im so caught up with being pregnant,running about for the kids and completing my courses my partners mental health took a turn for the worse he was diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder and PTSD 2 weeks after Erin is born surely this cannot be happening now.
You see life throws you curveballs and we automatically assume why is this happening to me instead of pausing for a minute dissolving the ego and actually asking what is all this trying to teach me. This is why I am so passionate about helping people to look at the bigger picture empower themselves stop the blaming and help them move forward in life with whatever the universe may have planned for you which doesn't fit in with your vision on how your life should be and then you become stuck or angry even resentful, we are all human expressing,addressing and acceptance is the root to a wonderful new beginning.
There is so much more I could go into but I am keeping that for my book lol.
Please feel free to drop me a message and see how I could guide you my block bookings cover all aspects of Manifesting,wellness,reiki and motivation, come over and join my high vibe tribe group.
LOVE AND LIGHT TO YOU
DAWN XX
