20/11/2025
On Tuesday I went to see Five, a band I adored in my teens.
I expected nostalgia, dancing, a fun night out.
I didn’t expect a huge healing moment.
The second the first song started, I was overwhelmed with emotion. Not memories — just a wave that hit so suddenly it brought tears to my eyes. It felt like something deep inside me opened for the first time in a long time.
For anyone who knows my story, my teenage years were full of trauma, and I learned to shut down a lot of emotions to survive. I’ve blocked out much of that time, including the parts of me that were just trying to enjoy being young.
But in that moment at the concert, it felt like my younger self finally had space to feel something she never got to feel back then.
It was inner child healing and trauma healing at the same time.
After the show, my leg shook uncontrollably on the drive home — which is actually a natural somatic release. The body literally “shakes off” stored survival energy when it feels safe enough to let go.
That night I couldn’t sleep properly, and the next day I crashed.
I slept for hours, woke up tired, tried to do a bit around the house, and then needed a long nap. I slept again the next night and didn’t wake until lunchtime today.
And honestly?
This is what real healing looks like.
The release is just the first part.
The integration afterwards is just as important.
Your body needs time to rebalance, regulate, and process what it finally let go of.
Healing isn’t always calm. Sometimes it’s messy, unexpected, physical, and exhausting — especially when the nervous system releases something it’s held onto for years.
I’ve had two Munay Ki 13th Rite of the Womb ceremonies in the past, and they brought their own beautiful, intentional healing.
But this was different.
This was spontaneous, body-led, and connected to a part of me I didn’t even realise still needed love.
And interestingly — all of this happened during the New Moon in Scorpio, a time associated with deep emotional clearing, transformation, and rebirth. The energy of this moon supports releasing old wounds and stepping into a more aligned version of yourself. The timing felt significant, like the universe was holding space for this shift.
I’m sharing this because healing isn’t a one-off moment.
It’s not a single ceremony or a single breakthrough.
It happens in stages, layers, and sometimes in the most unexpected places — like a concert you’ve been excited about for months.
If you’re on your own healing journey, please remember:
💛 Your body remembers.
💛 Your body releases when it’s ready.
💛 Rest afterwards isn’t weakness — it’s integration.
💛 Healing takes time, repetition, softness, and patience.
You’re not going backwards.
You’re growing, even when it’s uncomfortable.
And you’re never alone. 🌿
