18/03/2026
It’s been just over 10 years, and today I found myself back in this theatre watching Barnum.
Last time this happened, I was a band 5 nurse in MAU. I was stressed, overwhelmed and hiding how terrified I was of getting something wrong. I wanted to help people, but most shifts I felt completely out of my depth.
I was engaged, about to be married. Living in a small village in the Welsh valleys.
I thought I knew how life was going to go. I had plans and dreams.
I was wrong.
Over the years, people I thought would always be there disappeared. Others arrived and changed everything.
My heart broke. And then, slowly, it started to heal in ways I didn’t expect.
My career took off, then took a completely different direction.
The quiet village became a city full of life.
For a long time I sat waiting for things to change, not realising it was already happening, slowly, constantly reshaping everything.
They say we overestimate what we can do in a year and underestimate what we can do in a decade. Yup. That’s exactly what I did.
Maybe in another ten years I’ll be back in this same theatre watching Barnum. Maybe not.
Either way, I’m done trying to control what’s coming next.
I’ll take the highs, the lows and breathe my way through all of it.
But one thing hasn’t changed.
Barnum is still the greatest musical ever.
