01/01/2026
I'm up without agenda, sat in the kitchen listening to the kids on their xbox in the sitting room and the birds singing in the garden. The sun is shining gently and there is frost on the roof opposite. And I' sat with my first cup of cacao for 2026.
The change of the calendar year is not the time for great changes, look at nature, we are still in our winter. Its still time for stillness, reflection and quiet changes under the surface. Think of the trees, autumn saw them grow their seeds (conkers etc) then shed them and their leaves 🍃(because they no longer needed them for the growth, but instead need them to aid the transition) and quietly under that blanket of fallen leaves on the ground those seeds are starting to germinate. They are slowly growing under the surface, building strength, resilience and preparing to grow, to transition from the stillness, darkness beneath, preparing to reach for the light and grow tall. They don't go backwards or shrink, always growing and reaching new heights, they surrender to the cycles of nature and the earth, the move through each season and each of those seasons bring purpose. While the new trees and plants are beginning to quietly grow under the surface the established trees are quietly changing too, preparing to bud and blossom again in the spring. 🌱
So I sit here quietly thinking about 2025 and the season of change that have been this year. What have I done? The changes that have taken place, the achievements I have made, the things I have overcome . And Instead of comparing myself and my journey to other I give thanks to me. I appreciate all that I have done for myself and my journey. This year I have truly realised that I am a warrior (in many ways) I am mentally and physically so much stronger than I have ever given myself credit for. All those days I tell myself I'm exhausted and quite honestly mist of the time I am.... but I still find the strength to keep going. I haven't given up yet and I won't! Because I have proved to myself i can do anything. I continue to push myself, push my limits and quietly let go of Fear. I will continue to learn, grow and push myself, face my fears and prove that I am more...I AM
