27/12/2025
This photo was taken during a moment where I genuinely questioned everything.
I’ve done healing work before. I know the language. I know the patterns.
And still, there were days I thought
what’s the point of doing all this work if it hurts this much?
There were moments I wondered if healing was even worth it.
If awareness just makes things heavier.
If it would be easier to stay distracted, avoid, detach, and keep moving like everyone else does.
I’m a wishy-washy. An avoidant.
I know how to pull back, go quiet, create space when things feel too close or too real.
And this time, instead of running from that, I stayed present with it.
Healing didn’t make everything feel better overnight.
It didn’t fix me. It didn’t give me certainty.
What it gave me was choice.
The ability to notice when I’m protecting instead of connecting.
The ability to pause instead of disappear.
The ability to sit in discomfort without abandoning myself.
And that’s when it clicked
healing isn’t about feeling good all the time.
It’s about feeling real without falling apart.
So if you’re tired of doing the work
if you’re questioning whether it’s worth it
if you’re aware enough to see your patterns but exhausted by them
you’re not broken.
You’re just in the part of the journey most people quit.
And yes
it’s worth it.
Not because life becomes perfect, but because you become steadier inside it.
🖤✨🖤