01/04/2026
A Message from Heaven 💙
Dad…
I know how much you’re missing me. I feel it in the quiet moments, in the waves that come over you… the guilt, the anger, the feeling that life somehow robbed you. And the questions… the ones that never seem to settle.
Why did it end this way?
I see how it leaves you confused, trying to make sense of something that just doesn’t fit.
But I need you to hear me clearly…
There was nothing more you could have done.
You couldn’t have fixed this. You couldn’t have saved me.
Please don’t carry that weight anymore… it was never yours to hold.
I wasn’t like what people called “normal”… but I liked it that way.
Being different helped me feel things more deeply, care more, notice more.
It was my way of being in the world… and it was enough. I was enough.
What happened felt so gentle, Dad…
It was like I just drifted into a deep sleep… and when I opened my eyes again, I was here.
No fear. No pain. Just peace.
Granda was there waiting for me 🤍
And I wasn’t alone… there’s a dog here too. You’d smile if you saw us.
I love it here. I love listening to all the old stories, the ones about life, about everything people did and felt. You know I always enjoyed that… hearing about others, sharing in their world. Me and Granda, we just sit and talk… and I enjoy every moment.
And Dad… I do send you signs.
I see you question them sometimes, wondering if they’re real or if your mind is playing tricks.
But in your heart, you already know.
That feeling you get… that’s me.
I actually love finding little ways to reach you. It makes me smile every time.
Please… don’t ever feel bad for anything I went through.
Not everyone is meant to have a long life, and I know that’s hard to accept… but I didn’t need years and years to do what I came to do.
I had a gift…
To share my heart. To show kindness. To bring a softness into people’s lives.
And that ripple… it mattered more than you realise.
I’ve seen the things you do to remember me… (Sean shows me a symbol of a tattoo)
You don’t need to do anything Dad… but I feel the love behind it, and that means everything.
But listen to me…
I don’t want your life to stop because mine changed.
I’m still here. I’m still part of you, part of all of you.
And yes… I’m still stubborn too!
I still don’t like being told what to do… just like you.
I need you to live. Truly live.
Not just exist in the shadow of missing me.
Up here… everything makes sense now.
There’s no confusion anymore.
All the things that once felt tangled and overwhelming… they’re clear. Completely clear.
I understand in a way I never could before.
And I’m okay, Dad.
More than okay… I’m at peace.
Please hold onto that.
I love you… always
And thank you for being my Dad 💙 x
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