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♾️ 🏳️‍🌈 🧘‍♂️ 🥋 Supporting fellow neurodivergent young people, adults, and those navigating emotional wounds to find their path to healing through coaching, mindfulness, and nature. Through holistic coaching, workshops, and retreats, offering tools to cultivate unshakeable calm, self-awareness, and meaningful growth. This approach is a practice of inner Kung Fu — weaving together mindfulness, creative practice, and emotional education to help forge a Shaolin mindset. It’s a path of Zen warrior training: action rooted in stillness. Your journey here is an exploration of who you are beneath the noise. A chance to feel steady again and learn that stillness is strength. Welcome to your still point dojo — a space to go deeper, feel the silence and start afresh.

04/11/2025

The Great Escape (Return to Self)

We have been searching for the source of our captivity in the outer world —in institutions, in histories, in the actions of others. But the gateway to freedom does not lie there.

The actual lock and the only key exist within our own awareness.
We feel the echoes of ancient trauma, the weight of limiting beliefs, and the pull of a perceived reality that tells us we are small, separate, and powerless. These are not the creations of a shadowy them, but rather the accumulated inertia of a collective dream—a dream we have been participating in, and thus, co-creating.

The system of illusion, what we call the simulation, is not run by a distant cabal. It is sustained by a simple, self-replicating mechanism: forgetfulness.

We forgot who we are.

And from that primary amnesia, every other chain was forged. The energy that runs this entire show of limitation is our own energy—our attention, our belief, our life force—involuntarily given to a dream that no longer serves our awakening.
There is nothing we need to fight out there. The only task, the great work, is to withdraw our belief and our power from the dream.

So, what is the actual cause of the feeling of being trapped?
We are caught in loops of perception, cycles of thought and emotion that convince us the dream is absolute. We believe we are only the human character—the body, the personality, the story. This self-identity, rooted in limitation, keeps our consciousness tuned to a frequency of separation.
The entire cycle of karma and reincarnation, then, is not a prison designed by a warden, but a school of our own making. A compassionate, if arduous, curriculum meant to bring us back to the truth we forgot. The reason lessons seem to repeat is not because a jailer

erased our memory, but because we, the dreamer, have not yet fully awakened within the dream to recognise the lesson.
You are not your body. You are not your human story. These are temporary experiences. You are the eternal awareness experiencing itself through them.

When you identify solely with the five-sense human drama, with a cycle of unlearned lessons, or with the hope that something external will save you, you are aligning with the dream of separation. You are reinforcing the dream.

Awakening is not about discovering who is controlling the dream. It is about realising you are the dreamer.

When you remember this—when you constantly identify with the infinite, sovereign awareness that you are—your frequency naturally shifts. The dream begins to lose its solidity. Its illusions can no longer hold you, because you have stopped believing in them.
You return Home. Not to a place, but to a state of being. Home to your true nature as infinite potential.
We speak of awakening. But what does it mean?
It can mean seeing through societal structures of control. And yes, it can. It can mean knowing consciousness continues after the body's death. And yes, it does.

But if that is all, you are still navigating within the dream.
True, infinite awakening is the shocking, liberating realisation that the entire system of perceived reality is a construct inside your own consciousness. The Matrix is not a grid out there; it is the accumulated thought-form of separation housed within the collective mind.

To be free, you must let it all go. The fear. The doubt. The story of being a victim of a world you never made.

You did not make the world, but you are making your experience of it through the quality of your awareness.

The simulation isn't broken; it's a mirror. The way to escape is to stop believing in the reflection as the ultimate reality.

Why not just vanish from this place? Because the desire to escape is born from the very resistance that binds you to the dream. Nothing holds a dream in place more fiercely than the belief that it is a prison from which you must violently flee.
Instead, we must strive to bring more love and conscious awareness into the human experience. The most vital task is to expand our self-identity so profoundly that when the body falls away, we do not simply reset into another loop of forgetfulness. We ascend, fully conscious, back to our source (whatever that might be).

As we recognise the dream for what it is and withdraw our belief from it, we withdraw the very energy that sustains it. Our own power is being used to weave the veil. It is time to reclaim it.
The ultimate question is not Who is doing this to us? Instead:

Who am I, beyond this story?�
What is reality, beyond my perception of it?

You are not a powerless human in a random universe. You are the universe, experiencing itself as a human.

You are Eternal Consciousness. You have been immersed in a profound dream of being something else.

What you believe, you perceive. What you perceive, you experience.� The dreamer and the dream are the same. You have been dreaming of a limited life.

It is time to awaken, and to dream a new dream—a dream of your own infinite, sovereign nature.

03/11/2025

So this is me, celebrating my two hobbies - language and the need to explain myself - LOL. (I dislike that 'special interest' language).

I am really enjoying the creative process of poetry. Long may this new hobby last. It's also a big deal for me to share this as I battle with RSD.

Sideweys in the Heid

Hoo dae ye
mak airt
when yer thocht
rin lyke rivers
curlin
spillin
ower rocks
never restin in a bend?

a lift
ma brush
ma fingers shake
lyke leaves
in liftin air
the colours rin
slip awa
lyke watter
doon a burn

lines twist
loop
loop
lines dae nae lie still
patarns glint
fade
glint
come back

ma heid dreeps up corners
that wisnae there
the canvas hums
wi uneasy stirrin
the warld wants rest
but ma vision
spins sideweys

wirds linger
cum thegither
settle wee by wee
lyke rain
on tin roofs
lyke wind-swept grass
efter storms
they cm tae ma haun
when paint fled
and lines
lost their vawce

perfit shape,
straicht angle
slip awa frae me
but thrum, rhyme, pulse
bide
dylan thomas murmurs
in the dark
philip larkin sits dour
steidfast
sayin
“scrieve it onyway,
e’en gin the warld
disnae sit richt”

colours ring oot
shapes mutter
edges bow
strek
time gyres
whirls
skippit beats
sparks

tried tae catch it
in peint
tried sculptin
wi haun an ee
but it dreeps
melts awa
lyke mist
on a cauld morn

yet wirds
hae patience
they map
ma sideweys warld
tie loose strands
intae sang
mak the unseen
feel richt

mebbe a’m a poet
not for straicht lines
but for zigzag dance
o seein
showin the warld
as it hums
glints
twists
cracks an glimmers
and shines

and if shapes slip awa
colours rin lyke rain
then so be it
for the music o ma heid
will speak
will sing sideweys
turn ordinary
intae strange
intae braw
intae mine.

ENGLISH VERSION:

Sideways in the Mind

How do you
make art
when your thoughts
run like rivers
curling
spilling
over rock
never resting in one bend?

i lift
my brush
my fingers shake
like leaves
in the wind
the colours run
slip away
like water
down a stream

lines twist
loop
loop
lines do not lie still
patterns flash
fade
flash
return

my mind fills in gaps
dreams up corners
that were never there
the canvas hums
restless motion
the world wants stillness
but my vision
spins sideways

words linger
gather
settle slowly
like rain
on tin roofs
like wind-swept grass
after storms
they come to my hand
when paint has fled
and lines
lost their voice

perfect form
straight angles
slip away from me
but rhythm, rhyme, pulse
remain
dylan thomas whispers
in the dark
philip larkin sits dour
steady
saying
“write it anyway
even if the world
does not sit right”

colours echo
shapes whisper
edges bend
stretch
time loops
spirals
skipped beats
sparks

i’ve tried to catch it
in paint
tried sculpting
with hand and eye
but it melts
dissolves
like mist
on a cold morning

yet words
have patience
they map
my sideways world
tie loose strands
into song
make the invisible
feel real

maybe i’m a poet
not for straight lines
but for the zigzag dance
of seeing
showing the world
as it hums
flashes
twists
cracks and glimmers
and shines

and if shapes slip away
colours run like rain
then so be it
for the music of my mind
will speak
will sing sideways
turn the ordinary
into strange
into beautiful
into mine.

When I resist and have the fear about a cold water dip in the morn, I know it’s precisely what I need to do. The water r...
07/09/2022

When I resist and have the fear about a cold water dip in the morn, I know it’s precisely what I need to do. The water resets my circuits and releases everything that my body believes is serving me well, when in fact, it’s depletive and needs to leave. I am left feeling serene and really cleansed. The added bonus is the sense of achievement from not screaming or shaking and hyperventilating, instead bliss and peace wash around and through me.

A much needed nature recharge and forest bathing. An opportunity to ground and absorb all that freshness.               ...
09/02/2022

A much needed nature recharge and forest bathing. An opportunity to ground and absorb all that freshness.

douglas

Deep friendship, fellowship in an environment without any disagreement is so valuable, with no obstacles to connection. ...
11/06/2021

Deep friendship, fellowship in an environment without any disagreement is so valuable, with no obstacles to connection.

The earth element in a gathering of community, the warm embrace, a feeling of groundedness and belonging. Being in the right place, without self-consciousness; all of us present in that moment, nothing hidden or suppressed; no self-censoring, just folk being open and relaxing.

A capacity to move from place to place, moulding to surroundings without questioning the way in which they emerge, being genuinely accepting of the environment, so we can get to work building bonds of affection.

Innocense and recognising the value of everyone present, knowing they are indispensable for the integral whole. Acknowledging peoples' feelings regardless of the nature of their discussions; bringing everyone back into the water element — where there is flow and recognition of all of a soul, not just their words, their appearance, or what they did earlier.

Holding no agenda regarding what might occur, the outcome, or what we might get or not get, as a consequence of that synergy. Nevertheless, recognising what we really need to say; releasing control factors and things that emotionally propel us.

Observing our feelings and making sure we are represented fully in an exchange with nothing left unsaid. Composure, balance, not interrupting, reflecting back on what someone is saying, through demonstrating our comprehension.

Bringing awareness to when might be talking about ourselves too much, steering the conversation back, always as the centre of the exchange — are others included? Look at them, feeding back on their position and including anything you notice, so they feel seen.

Distinguishing when to be silent; the art of a real storyteller is to get to the point pronto and include all those concerned. Deep togetherness regardless of varying personalities come from responding to the needs of the individuals despite the issues.

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08/06/2021

I made time tonight to transmute all fear and limitations I placed on myself as a child. I went back to those moments and brought them alive with all my senses, all my heart. I asked my younger self what proof do I need to give him that I am from future. I bonded in heart space with my younger self and told him how much I love him. How excited I am about the future and how amazing it will all be. The fire crackled and got even more intense. I was able to transmute their pain via my heart and hand into the fire. I’ve had so many ego fears about doing this work. And I felt sick and had a brain compression whilst undertaking it at first. The fire wouldn’t light, yet I persevered. I could feel it all clearing away from me with my truth spoken to the fire and transmuted into peace and ease.

One of the challenges for myself right now is to try to see the beauty of Mother Earth in the most urban of places. Our ...
17/02/2021

One of the challenges for myself right now is to try to see the beauty of Mother Earth in the most urban of places.

Our ancestors were especially present, and with that comes an awareness of everything around us. We can find utter beauty in the falling of a leaf, rain streaming down a window, cloud formations and bird song.

We can also apply to our spiritual practice, finding something good or the lesson in a situation where life seems like it is falling apart, discovering a spark in an unmotivated experience.

Even in the concrete urban jungle, we can find places of calm and reflection. It's a lovely way to connect to the land around us.

The harmonic qualities of music can have a profound and beneficial effect on the human subconscious.Rhythmic repetitive ...
16/02/2021

The harmonic qualities of music can have a profound and beneficial effect on the human subconscious.

Rhythmic repetitive music is a recognised method for humans into trance or altered state of consciousness which enable us to journey and access our soul-sight and come into a closer relationship with our soul, which will then reflect on our inner wellbeing, and the path we take in life.

Modern life dampens our intuition and leaves us with no time for our soul. Music has the power to help us rediscover, reclaim or realign our soul so that we can achieve equilibrium in all aspects of our life. Connection with our soul rises to wholeness and balance.

The use of sound to bring about greater wellbeing is understood throughout western clinical medicine. The use of sound t...
16/02/2021

The use of sound to bring about greater wellbeing is understood throughout western clinical medicine. The use of sound therapy is advantageous for schizophrenia, dementia, cardiovascular diseases, somatic issues, anxiety, pain, post-surgery recovery, depression, multiple sclerosis, and many other physical, emotional, and psychological matters.

Music-making using drumming lowers stress-related cytokine interleukin-10 levels, these markers explain better immune system response, as well as disease prevention.

We have a strong tradition of healing from the ancient world, that is once more reawakening in the now.

Each of us holds a powerful dream just waiting to come into creation. It's a collective dream, a desire shared by all — ...
10/02/2021

Each of us holds a powerful dream just waiting to come into creation. It's a collective dream, a desire shared by all — one which sets us free enriched with wisdom and creativity.

Once we find our way to this universal dream, we can then embody it — so that, in small ways, we can give to the energetic world around us.

We get to that dream space by connecting with the pulse of life of the earth and all the trees around us. To love the land, this place we call home might seem alien to some. If we can appreciate love in a wider context, not just romantic love, we can then connect more with this universal truth — dreaming peace into living life.

Sleep time is not a dead space, its a portal to a different type of consciousness — one that is reflective and medicinal...
09/02/2021

Sleep time is not a dead space, its a portal to a different type of consciousness — one that is reflective and medicinal full of divergent thoughts and unexpected insights.

We access our dreamworld via our intestines, we digest not only what we eat, but we also hold here our sacred dream space.

How to break past limiting beliefs?Consciously we wake up each day knowing we have a productive and enjoyable day, yet s...
08/02/2021

How to break past limiting beliefs?

Consciously we wake up each day knowing we have a productive and enjoyable day, yet subconsciously we are stopping ourselves. It does not sound logical, yet there is a little part of us that is sabotaging the outcome and controlling our lives.

We have around 60,000 thoughts a day. We would go insane if we were aware of these thoughts — it's just not possible.

Most of our thoughts are repetitive, so we go about our lives in repeat mode, and a lot of those thoughts tend to be negative, and its taking place in our subconscious mind.

My work helps people understand the power of the subconscious mind and all the things that we do as part of our routines the conscious mind only influences 5%‚ everything else is happening in our lives is below our level of awareness.

We forget that before the age of 7 we were programmed with our basic core beliefs and values in our lives, all held in our subconscious mind and that we operate from the unseen, and we repeat it over and over again and as we gain more experience as we progress through life, things get a little more complex.

The nature of the mind is to make sense of the world. The subconscious is going around looking for things, making associates and repeating those patterns.

Our brains generate, beliefs, perceptions, thoughts and behaviours that are in alignment with core beliefs. And bear in mind we collect these beliefs from other people.

If we have a programme running on the subconscious level that says no, there is no way for the conscious mind to override this deeply ingrained belief.

We have to make friends with the subconscious mind and give it a new set of instructions. And that's what my work is all about!

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Counselling, Chi Work & Natural Health—supporting you explore possibilties.

We have an immense power within us which we have forgotten. Connected to our potential, we are in a state of flow and creation. Life feels easier; we are then free to create a new reality.

What stops us accessing this potential is getting caught up in our thinking and limiting beliefs which can lead to feeling insecure, lacking confidence and a loss of clarity.

What if you could spend more time in the state of flow? What if you could feel more connected to yourself and those around you?

I help people get out of their heads and achieve the desires of their heart.