19/01/2026
We went to any lengths to get away from being ourselves. The lines got fatter, the grams went faster, the week's stash was all used up today. We found ourselves scraping envelopes and baggies with razor blades, scratching the last flakes from the corners of brown bottles, snorting or smoking any white speck from the floor when we ran out. We, who prided ourselves on our fine-tuned state of mind! Nothing mattered more to us than the straw, the pipe, the needle. Even if it made us feel miserable, we had to have it.
Some of us mixed co***ne with alcohol or other drugs, and found temporary relief in the change, but in the end, it only compounded our problems. We tried quitting by ourselves, finally, and sometimes managed to do so for periods of time. After a month we imagined we were in control. We thought our system was cleaned out and we could get the old high again, using half as much. This time, we'd be careful not to go overboard. But we only found ourselves back where we were before, and worse.
We never left the house without using first. We didn't make love without using. We didn't talk on the phone without coke. We didnβt fall asleep, sometimes it seemed we couldn't even breathe without co***ne. We tried changing jobs, apartments, cities, lovers -- believing that our lives were being screwed up by circumstances, places, people. Perhaps we saw a co***ne friend die of respiratory arrest and still we went on using! But eventually we had to face facts. We had to admit that co***ne was a serious problem in our lives, that we were addicts.
If you can identify with this, contact Co***ne Anonymous on 0141 959 63 63 or drop a DM and we will reach out to you - there is a solutionβ¦
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