05/11/2025
Oh Mr dod! 😲
What you see as a fitness instructor and how I truly feel…
I’m sorry! Another post about the difficulties I’ve been facing. But I can’t help reflecting on something that feels deeply wrong.
Our NHS is meant to make people better: to care, diagnose, support, and restore health. Yet this year, more than ever, I feel worse.
It’s been a battle of four long years, being passed from one consultant to another. I’m tired. I’m fed up. I know the NHS is overwhelmed and many staff do their best but too often, people simply don’t listen, don’t act, misdiagnose and don’t care enough. I’ve been rejected a few times despite valid referrals, bounced around like a tennis ball, and now feel like the one left tangled in the net forgotten.
Every hit I take leaves a mark, and my body suffers the consequences.
I live with daily discomfort and pain, yet still try to run my business and show up for others though I now often feel I am failing.
What kind of system tells you without tests first, “Sorry, you have a tumour and it’s probably cancer,” only to backtrack 5 weeks later with, “Oh, it now might be lymphoma, so we can’t do your surgery and we don’t know what it is”? When will I hear back? When will I be sorted?
I follow every instruction, go through the emotional and physical rollercoaster, cancel work, only for it all to end up in my eyes a waste of time and energy. They call it “precaution.” I call it losing precious time, while my real problem gets worse.
I share this not for sympathy, but because I know I’m not alone. Too many people are quietly suffering, pretending they’re fine. In the UK, we’re too shy, too polite, too proud to admit we’re not okay and that needs to change. You have a right to be heard.
For the first time in 23 years in the UK, I feel brokenhearted. This country was once my safe haven now it feels like it’s slowly killing me.
I’m sorry to say I’ve had to cancel my classes again. I simply can’t keep pretending I’m fine when my body is screaming otherwise. I’m now run down, full of cold, with a harsh dry cough that’s making everything worse.
Please take care of yourselves. Don’t take your health or your peace of mind for granted. 💔
Mr dod 😊 🙏 ❤️ 💪