05/12/2025
I cried before work most mornings when I was going through IVF, then fixed my face and walked into the office pretending everything was fine.
At the time I was working 8am-6pm in corporate, running on cortisol and caffeine, carrying this huge invisible weight that no one really saw. I didn’t feel like I could be honest about how much it was taking out of me, not at work, not with friends, not even fully with myself.
The scans, the blood tests, the waiting, the hope, the heartbreak, the miscarriages, the two-week wait that felt like forever. I held it all in because I didn’t want to seem like I wasn’t coping.
Looking back now, I just wish more people talked about this part. The part where you feel like you have to keep functioning even when you’re falling apart behind the scenes.
If you’re in it right now, I just want to say you’re not failing. You’re carrying more than most people will ever understand. You don’t have to explain it, and you’re allowed to fall apart sometimes too.
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Sending love
Nadine x