17/10/2025
A message to my younger self.
“I see how much weight you are carrying kid. You feel like you can’t tell anyone, especially not mum and dad when they are the ones you want to tell the most.
You’re suspicious of everyone, you almost hate all of man kind. Every day you put on this tough exterior so people won’t treat you like sh*t again.
Even though people at this school are alright and you have great friends you still carry the scars from your school in Scotland and you fear everyday that people here are going to make fun of you or say how ugly you are so you desperately try to blend in, look like everyone else, be like everyone else so no one looks at you. Attention in your eyes has never been good.
You are bored as hell at school. All these rules, these pointless lessons but you feel like you’re stupid so what’s the point in trying. Teachers tell you you’re not good enough and this point in your life you believe that. Surely there is more to life than this?
You learn to love yourself, you even learn that not all man kind is bad. You have the bestest friends who are fiercely protective. Boys fancy you and really hot boys too! You go to uni and focus on art, better still you become a designer.
You are clever, so so loved, you fall in love with the best guy who always has your back. You dress how you want, act like you want, you are wild and carefree.
You tell mum and dad and they are amazing, do you get justice? No but it doesn’t matter because they know now. That’s enough.
They are twists and turns, not all good along the way but you get through them and grow into the best version of yourself. You’d really like her, she’s pretty cool.
I’m so proud of you & how you handled things. You are so strong & you’re just a kid. I’m here for you, be yourself, don’t be afraid”
There are many versions of ourselves and this photo of me aged 16 is just one of hundreds of versions of myself. I could send them all a message.
Humans grow and change all the time. You don’t notice the daily changes but if you look back over time you can see just how far you have come & that’s why inner child work is so important.
What would you say to a version of your younger self?
