07/11/2025
1. I used to hide in the loo just to breathe, and sometimes have a little cry, then I’d come back out smiling like nothing happened.
2. I was a slave to the green light (IYKYK) terrified someone would think if I wasn’t there, I wasn’t working hard enough.
3. My stomach dropped every time a senior manager’s name popped up in my inbox even though I’d done nothing wrong.
4. If I was five minutes late, my mind spiralled, my heart would race, I’d panic and then stay in the office much later than I needed to, often over my hours, all just to show I was committed but inwardly worried they thought badly of me.
5. I looked confident and chatty, but inside I was constantly on alert, analysing everything I said in that meeting, or to that colleague. The sheer hyper vigilance, like the world was out to get me, even on my commute…especially on my commute.
No wonder I was exhausted all the time.
It’s a lot.
I wish I’d known sooner all of the things I do now.
How life gets so much better when your nervous system is regulated.
Want me to show you how?
Jools Xx
