13/11/2024
Wishing everyone a very good morning.
I just wanted to let you all know that my website is temporarily down. Hoping to have it up and running again sometime today. The reason for this is that I accidently managed to delete off part of one of my website pages. As you can imagine I was pretty irritated, annoyed and disappointed with myself.
I sat in stillness, and simply allowed myself to be with all of my uncomfortable feelings, acknowledging them with a gentle curiosity. I welcomed all my feelings and even said hello to them. I tuned into how I was feeling in my body, to all of my sensations. What I noticed was that my breathing was both shallow and fast. My shoulders were hunched and my jaw was clenched, and I had a knot in my stomach. This was anxiety. I was fearful that I would not be able to re-write what I had lost in the same way, that it would not be as good. After sitting with my anxiety and understanding what was underneath it, I was able to accept all of my feelings in a more compassionate way.
Then I noticed a shift in my breathing and the knot in my stomach was gone. I switched off my computer and ran myself a hot bath, important self-care. My thoughts had also changed, and I was hopeful that tomorrow I was going to re-write all I had lost in a even better way!
Incredibly important to me as a therapist is the ability to inspire and instil a sense of hope in others. However, yesterday was a reminder to me that I must first be able to instil hope in myself. My hope in posting this is that I may inspire you to have HOPE today, no matter how difficult or challenging your day is. Sit with whatever you may be feeling, no matter how much you wish to push all your feelings away. Notice your breathing, notice any sensations in your body with a gentle curiosity and see if anything changes.
Sending you all love, light and blessings X
